Some Thoughts After Sitting in the Dark
Posted: Wed Dec 11, 2013 8:39 pm
Sitting in the Dark with eyes open- An Entry into the Subconscious - and Maybe More
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Last night Jessica and I went to bed early. Unable to fall asleep, Jessica got up to take a shower. She showered in the Dark. I sat up in bed and stared out into the darkness. Noticing my eyes were adjusting to the dark, I raised my hand in the air and stared at it. I started to feel the subtle energy around my arm and the weight of the quietness in our room. I looked around the edges of our furniture and noticed the shadows were indeed playing tricks with my eyes. I tried breathing slowly, inhaling deeply, imagining I was filling my body with life and drawing that energy into my stomach. With the exhale I imagined spreading the life energy around my insides reaching out to my arms. I started to think of energy, Chi- Healing, and things like communicating with Spirits. When I stare into the darkness my eyes tend to un-focus and darker spots in the room can grow in size or move. We left our closet door open and as I looked into the darkness through the door I immediately thought someone or something was standing there. I felt like they were trying to reach out. My initial response was anger. I knew though this wasn't the way to respond. With a change of perception I tried to be still and allow my imagination to continue on with whatever it was my subconscious (or whatever it was) might be trying to show me. Not to shortly afterwards though Jessica returned and told me she had been getting a lot of Spirit work done and having a very therapeutic experience. Even though we were in two separate rooms we were having a similar experience in the darkness. We were intrigued.
Laying there we continued to discuss these things and reflect. I asked why it was I responded in anger with the idea of a spirit being in our house. I believe the answer goes back to childhood. I had a couple instances as a child that I could not explain and left me feeling helpless. For example, one restless night a long time ago I felt breath against my ear as something whispered Eric into my ear. I was so scared and pulled the blankets over my head and couldn't fall asleep without my heart hurting or being afraid. I remember anytime I thought there was something in my parent’s house I'd yell out: "Whose there? I'm calling the cops!" And would take a bat or a kitchen knife and cautiously open each door. I did so because I felt something supernatural and was afraid to face it. After being a member here and reading some amazing experiences shared by other member’s regarding the paranormal I believe it is not too far- fetched to think these forces I felt as a child might be a sensitivity and receptiveness to spirits from a different reality, a different world.
We were blessed to have this experience last night and to think about things that pull us out from the routine of every-day living. I’d like to experience more with this world. The energy from last night was inspiring. I felt really connected with the idea of meditation and letting Spirit teach me- Not to be afraid of the dark and not to be afraid of Death. And to teach me not to judge an experience I cannot explain. I haven’t faced my inner fears and know there is a lot to learn if I just take the time to sit and listen. I believe this is something we can benefit from in attempts to reach out and communicate with celestials. To balance or lessen the inner turmoil and conquer our fears so we may open up to the opportunity in connecting with our teachers. From a personal opinion, because I am fearful of being alone when something supernatural happens, I know practicing something like being comfortable in the dark is going to help. I think people that are very familiar or comfortable with the identity they’ve defined themselves as in this Material world are scared to die. I believe the more we think we know, the greater our fear might be in interacting with things we don’t. Fear of the unknown. It is too easy to forget to meditate because of the routine of day to day living- of the reality that ask for our attention to make income and be involved with activities that keep us in a very alert state and so I wanted to create this thread as a way to remember some of these deeper desires- a place to ponder and share any experience hereafter.
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Last night Jessica and I went to bed early. Unable to fall asleep, Jessica got up to take a shower. She showered in the Dark. I sat up in bed and stared out into the darkness. Noticing my eyes were adjusting to the dark, I raised my hand in the air and stared at it. I started to feel the subtle energy around my arm and the weight of the quietness in our room. I looked around the edges of our furniture and noticed the shadows were indeed playing tricks with my eyes. I tried breathing slowly, inhaling deeply, imagining I was filling my body with life and drawing that energy into my stomach. With the exhale I imagined spreading the life energy around my insides reaching out to my arms. I started to think of energy, Chi- Healing, and things like communicating with Spirits. When I stare into the darkness my eyes tend to un-focus and darker spots in the room can grow in size or move. We left our closet door open and as I looked into the darkness through the door I immediately thought someone or something was standing there. I felt like they were trying to reach out. My initial response was anger. I knew though this wasn't the way to respond. With a change of perception I tried to be still and allow my imagination to continue on with whatever it was my subconscious (or whatever it was) might be trying to show me. Not to shortly afterwards though Jessica returned and told me she had been getting a lot of Spirit work done and having a very therapeutic experience. Even though we were in two separate rooms we were having a similar experience in the darkness. We were intrigued.
Laying there we continued to discuss these things and reflect. I asked why it was I responded in anger with the idea of a spirit being in our house. I believe the answer goes back to childhood. I had a couple instances as a child that I could not explain and left me feeling helpless. For example, one restless night a long time ago I felt breath against my ear as something whispered Eric into my ear. I was so scared and pulled the blankets over my head and couldn't fall asleep without my heart hurting or being afraid. I remember anytime I thought there was something in my parent’s house I'd yell out: "Whose there? I'm calling the cops!" And would take a bat or a kitchen knife and cautiously open each door. I did so because I felt something supernatural and was afraid to face it. After being a member here and reading some amazing experiences shared by other member’s regarding the paranormal I believe it is not too far- fetched to think these forces I felt as a child might be a sensitivity and receptiveness to spirits from a different reality, a different world.
We were blessed to have this experience last night and to think about things that pull us out from the routine of every-day living. I’d like to experience more with this world. The energy from last night was inspiring. I felt really connected with the idea of meditation and letting Spirit teach me- Not to be afraid of the dark and not to be afraid of Death. And to teach me not to judge an experience I cannot explain. I haven’t faced my inner fears and know there is a lot to learn if I just take the time to sit and listen. I believe this is something we can benefit from in attempts to reach out and communicate with celestials. To balance or lessen the inner turmoil and conquer our fears so we may open up to the opportunity in connecting with our teachers. From a personal opinion, because I am fearful of being alone when something supernatural happens, I know practicing something like being comfortable in the dark is going to help. I think people that are very familiar or comfortable with the identity they’ve defined themselves as in this Material world are scared to die. I believe the more we think we know, the greater our fear might be in interacting with things we don’t. Fear of the unknown. It is too easy to forget to meditate because of the routine of day to day living- of the reality that ask for our attention to make income and be involved with activities that keep us in a very alert state and so I wanted to create this thread as a way to remember some of these deeper desires- a place to ponder and share any experience hereafter.
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