Hi universallove,
I have never believed in God, I just found the idea of a God unrealistic...Though I have always believed in the power of the Universe and felt a connection since I was a young child.
I think that in a way, what lies underneath and behind every cell and atom etc...in the universe is in a very real sense God or at the very least the fabric of God. I believe this "divine Power" in the universe is to each of us what we need It to be and perhaps even reaches out to us in these ways, custom designed for our needs alone. Of course, no one can prove this or the very existence of "God" to another person. And the way we think of this Power, Source, Infinite being, Eternal Father ...whatever... is very, very personal. I remember much to my embarrassment some years ago getting furious at a man who levelled on another person for expressing their idea of God as a fatherly figure.(His own father had been quite abusive and so in some ways very understandable) But still for me...this was very hurtful and wrong...so me telling you what you have to think about God, my way would be wrong as this is your journey. We can describe God from our own impressions as we sit in stillness and feel the love and universe vibrations. But this time is fleeting...sort of like a butterfly landing here and there as we long to express in a human dialog what we have seen, heard, felt...all three just as equally important. But we can never do it justice... they are just words when given second hand. But what we felt was real, vibrant... Truth. Real Truth with a capital T lies in those moments of stillness when the world and all its distractions stands still and it is you and this "Creator/upholder/ Power"...when you feel this overwhelming Love and in those moments you don't have to understand the complexities... the “hows” and the “whys”. I guess for me just knowing that out there is something massively unexplainable that reaches for me and finds a way without words to soothe my sorrows and instil a quiet peace regardless of the turmoil of my life. "Things" have occurred in these moments that science would be hard pressed to explain...But my imprints, the way I feel about this Power, in reality are my own and not to be offered as proof positive. But I will say that I found the answer to "the age old question" and found that it comes from sitting in quiet meditation over and over and even over again. We can read about God in books but they are still just flat black and white words that will never do this Infinite Power justice.
Whether there is a God or there isn't is for you to discover and this goes for each of us... it is the only way.
Oh now, Jesus!!!! He saved me when I was at my lowest point ever! I called to Him and felt Him in the room....so much Love!!!...I cried for hours from the sheer beauty of that Love... But once again,same as above...we have free will to search, discover, find, contemplate, digest, accumulate, withdraw, trust, back off, reach out, etc... and I do all of those sometimes in a day. LOL
It helps me to know that the universe allows for our confusion and doesn't expect us to suddenly know everything...We have time to figure it all out be it here or in other realms...this allows us to just be... be in the moment and appreciate what this might mean...The coolness of the air as it brushes past my skin, the smell of my neighbours lovely dinner on the stove, the sounds of the birds splashing water out of my make shift bird bath and the site of the magnificent mountains overlooking the lake. But that is not where it ends..this is just the beginning what is superficial to the moment... we go deeper...and we ask ourselves what is inside of me...why am I exalted and brought to tears when I am reminded of this moment...having left my worry about the finances, my health, my inabilities behind me for a time. As I get even quieter and follow the trail of thoughts and feelings .... I see I am tracking something.... tidbits and impressions of something larger then I can possibly imagine... A biblical fiery cloud emitting power and radiance?...well, maybe somewhere in the universes of time but here and for me in this moment it is delicate laughter...deep within...a shared resonance...a most cherished communion deep.
Nope see...words cannot describe...and I am reminded that I cannot help you prove or disprove anything. How I wish I could. but it is all good... your thoughts...your way... your view of this universe power. Relish the discoveries you make and know behind them are more...and more...and more.
Love,
Sandy