Serious Faces, Just silence, Difficult to calm my thougths
Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 4:33 am
Hello everyone,
This is my first post in this forum, I am from Mexico and my English it's not as good as a native speaker write it, so please try to read me twice if I make mistakes in my messages. I discovered this web site about two or three months ago looking for a serious answer for a deeply concern within and believe me or not this website was the answer but ironically I got it looking PlanetaryHQ, don't get me wrong I don't get a long with all those guys, I was really desperate for an answer and I was challenging everything I was really mad on those days and I decided to go to the dark side for a while. Today I still wonder why people want to follow the legacy of Caligastia if our father it's always inviting us to be like him/her? anyway, it worked for me because I got this place and now I fell that my light within push me far away from my boundaries and was time to take the next step on my spiritual life.
I am reader of Urantia Book since 1995 (I haven't finished) and that book change my life forever that's why I feel quite comfortable when we talk about Angels, Midwayers, Thought Adjuster, Machiventa Melchizedek and many other concepts.
Too many thing s are new for me in this forum, I don't have no idea how to heal people and not a clue if one day I will be able to help somebody in that way, I got astonish when I discover that Michael of Nebadon one of our very best friends still transmit to us like the midwayers do or know that Machiventa Melchizedek it's the new one boss in charge and Caligastia is gone and no more damage he can make to this planet as he and Lucifer did centuries ago my soul felt deeply relieved when I read that Michael command Machiventa and all the midwayers platoon to put hands on work and be in touch with us working to change the past and glorify the name of our beloved father to make this Home Planet to progress. Now I know that my short life in Urantia will be an experience to don't be forgotten looking how this dark age start to fall.
Well, but my issues as newbie started after I decided to put my mind on work and start to meditate, it was easy to fall in deep relaxation for me because I have a collection of audios of Kelly Howell and other hypnotherapists that guide you to reach deep relaxation states. My very first experience with the AC CD was exciting, I reach my akashic library (my mind refuses a lot to follow the instructions of our George and I got a very different place that he describes in the CD) and I get a warm welcome from a youth girl that told me that my place was done and that she will be helping me and guiding me from time to time, but I have never sen her again and inside me I got the impression that was a Celestial related to my personal security.
After others attempts I got the visit of a child very anxious to take a look over my AL, he was very happy to look over I did on my mind with my AL, but suddenly he disappeared and I got a talk with a old woman with a personal question that I did, I still remember her calm and wise and the black color of her dress.
But suddenly I have no success getting in touch with other Celestials after those events, I still doubt if was just my deep imagination or if was a real contact with all them, because in mind I never seen this people before, my last experience was with a being not human, and I want to remark "not human" he's scare me in the first impression but after he talked I got comfort in his words and show me that I have to keep going looking for more answers living life.
All the experiences were clear, fluently and with things that I know never seen before or I expect from my mind, I always got the feeling that something outside my mind was manipulating my view, I mean those were not my thoughts, ideas or images but I am confuse if all that was produced by my current information that receive in mornings when messages appear on my computer.
These days it's quite hard to stay in focus when I try to reach my AL so I got to get back to basics and I am practicing relaxation exercises and try to just meditate, but believe me, I still wonder what is meditate? because I get deep states or relaxation using Kelly Howell Audio that is made to reach Alpha and Theta states (I feel more comfortable with tight headphones that block ambient sounds and leave soft music in my ears, almost any sound can distract me on that moments) but I just get my mind in white for some seconds, then I think in something that needs to be done and I get back to white again, other times I got so deep and I get in between fall asleep and hear the sounds of music or our George's voice I am trying to hear or see in my mind messages from my thought adjuster but nothing.
Other thing that it's happening from some weeks ago is that when I am relaxing myself and feeling comfortable I get several flashes of things or people that I have never seen before, it's quite clear like that I be there, can be a picture, a woman, a men, the grasp a mountain, a gear on a machine what ever you can imagine. That images come to me for one or two seconds but what really amaze me it's that I get in all detail and I look for memories where I have seen all this before and I am sure that I have never seen on my real life and I always look the face of the people in all detail like I were front of them but they look worry almost all the time, in their own thoughts and I would like if somebody have experienced something like this before?
This events started always when I am relaxing myself with my eyes closed looking to chill my mind in the most peaceful states, at the beginning I didn't take this in consideration I thought it was my mind that was in the process of relaxation and that happens as something natural to reach the alpha state but now it happens almost one or two times when I am practicing my relaxation and it's like I were in other place looking the event just in a shot or through other person's view and I really wonder what this can be?
Finally if somebody get in touch with teacher Ophelius practicing meditation please!!!, please!!!, please!!! let him know that I send my greetings and gratitude, I love the way that he explain all the things and some of his messages touch my soul and sometimes I wonder when I will read him again.
In the mean time, I send my love and best wishes to you all, God help us to leave a better world for our future children.
Juox Aeon from Guadalajara, Mexico.
This is my first post in this forum, I am from Mexico and my English it's not as good as a native speaker write it, so please try to read me twice if I make mistakes in my messages. I discovered this web site about two or three months ago looking for a serious answer for a deeply concern within and believe me or not this website was the answer but ironically I got it looking PlanetaryHQ, don't get me wrong I don't get a long with all those guys, I was really desperate for an answer and I was challenging everything I was really mad on those days and I decided to go to the dark side for a while. Today I still wonder why people want to follow the legacy of Caligastia if our father it's always inviting us to be like him/her? anyway, it worked for me because I got this place and now I fell that my light within push me far away from my boundaries and was time to take the next step on my spiritual life.
I am reader of Urantia Book since 1995 (I haven't finished) and that book change my life forever that's why I feel quite comfortable when we talk about Angels, Midwayers, Thought Adjuster, Machiventa Melchizedek and many other concepts.
Too many thing s are new for me in this forum, I don't have no idea how to heal people and not a clue if one day I will be able to help somebody in that way, I got astonish when I discover that Michael of Nebadon one of our very best friends still transmit to us like the midwayers do or know that Machiventa Melchizedek it's the new one boss in charge and Caligastia is gone and no more damage he can make to this planet as he and Lucifer did centuries ago my soul felt deeply relieved when I read that Michael command Machiventa and all the midwayers platoon to put hands on work and be in touch with us working to change the past and glorify the name of our beloved father to make this Home Planet to progress. Now I know that my short life in Urantia will be an experience to don't be forgotten looking how this dark age start to fall.
Well, but my issues as newbie started after I decided to put my mind on work and start to meditate, it was easy to fall in deep relaxation for me because I have a collection of audios of Kelly Howell and other hypnotherapists that guide you to reach deep relaxation states. My very first experience with the AC CD was exciting, I reach my akashic library (my mind refuses a lot to follow the instructions of our George and I got a very different place that he describes in the CD) and I get a warm welcome from a youth girl that told me that my place was done and that she will be helping me and guiding me from time to time, but I have never sen her again and inside me I got the impression that was a Celestial related to my personal security.
After others attempts I got the visit of a child very anxious to take a look over my AL, he was very happy to look over I did on my mind with my AL, but suddenly he disappeared and I got a talk with a old woman with a personal question that I did, I still remember her calm and wise and the black color of her dress.
But suddenly I have no success getting in touch with other Celestials after those events, I still doubt if was just my deep imagination or if was a real contact with all them, because in mind I never seen this people before, my last experience was with a being not human, and I want to remark "not human" he's scare me in the first impression but after he talked I got comfort in his words and show me that I have to keep going looking for more answers living life.
All the experiences were clear, fluently and with things that I know never seen before or I expect from my mind, I always got the feeling that something outside my mind was manipulating my view, I mean those were not my thoughts, ideas or images but I am confuse if all that was produced by my current information that receive in mornings when messages appear on my computer.
These days it's quite hard to stay in focus when I try to reach my AL so I got to get back to basics and I am practicing relaxation exercises and try to just meditate, but believe me, I still wonder what is meditate? because I get deep states or relaxation using Kelly Howell Audio that is made to reach Alpha and Theta states (I feel more comfortable with tight headphones that block ambient sounds and leave soft music in my ears, almost any sound can distract me on that moments) but I just get my mind in white for some seconds, then I think in something that needs to be done and I get back to white again, other times I got so deep and I get in between fall asleep and hear the sounds of music or our George's voice I am trying to hear or see in my mind messages from my thought adjuster but nothing.
Other thing that it's happening from some weeks ago is that when I am relaxing myself and feeling comfortable I get several flashes of things or people that I have never seen before, it's quite clear like that I be there, can be a picture, a woman, a men, the grasp a mountain, a gear on a machine what ever you can imagine. That images come to me for one or two seconds but what really amaze me it's that I get in all detail and I look for memories where I have seen all this before and I am sure that I have never seen on my real life and I always look the face of the people in all detail like I were front of them but they look worry almost all the time, in their own thoughts and I would like if somebody have experienced something like this before?
This events started always when I am relaxing myself with my eyes closed looking to chill my mind in the most peaceful states, at the beginning I didn't take this in consideration I thought it was my mind that was in the process of relaxation and that happens as something natural to reach the alpha state but now it happens almost one or two times when I am practicing my relaxation and it's like I were in other place looking the event just in a shot or through other person's view and I really wonder what this can be?
Finally if somebody get in touch with teacher Ophelius practicing meditation please!!!, please!!!, please!!! let him know that I send my greetings and gratitude, I love the way that he explain all the things and some of his messages touch my soul and sometimes I wonder when I will read him again.
In the mean time, I send my love and best wishes to you all, God help us to leave a better world for our future children.
Juox Aeon from Guadalajara, Mexico.