a journal update. apologies if the images come out too large .... maybe i'll just share one or two and then simply provide the link instead of uploading them all with this entry.
my beautiful friends have inspired me to get an actual hard journal- and i'm finding it incredible, i've been so used to coming here to log all the details :-D but this is really helpful. what's interesting is, the group has been encouraged by multiple members to get a hard journal. so their influence is tangible.
i was in my parents house one day and found a journal a friend gifted me from 2023. there is a synchronicity here... as our group study had become more articulated/formed- i would experience personal alignments with concepts we were discussing through the show i was watching. it was a show i picked at random, and there were eerie parallels like our discussion and exploration with the concept of time. one was even blurryface' OBE that involved all of us in a jungle going on an adventure. it was the same number of people, the same jungle like adventure being lived out in the series.
and the journal i found was this,
"Fix your course on a star and you'll navigate any storm" ~ Leonardo da Vinci
it's incredible that i'd forgotten about this journal, but the moment i needed one, i find this in my parents house 3 years later. equally incredible is that it would also be related to my group study where i experienced unique parallels with this group while watching a randomly chosen series on amazon called, "Da Vinci's Demons"
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i'm realizing that i experience synchronicities as a way to tap into the WBE. that there are beings working 'behind the scenes' who would orient my awareness/my attention in such a way, and help me realize the shift in my own being- that i am in communication with something greater than what i ordinarily think of as my self.
the group has agreed its time to hone our telepathy... and something started helping me pay attention when- the next day, on another forum, someone decided to talk about
universal telepathy.
i don't think it's a coincidence, especially if i consider that there are greater forces at play- in service...
sunday night was family dinner at mom and dads. we had a childhood friend coming over. this childhood friend lost her mother at an early age, so mom invites her over for her birthday to enjoy her favorite meal.
i'm in a very frugal/conserve finances mode- so i didn't have anything to bring. i'm rummaging through my apartment and lo and behold- i find a beautiful post card that is blank, the perfect birthday card.
as i continue digging through my closet i notice this journal:
https://i.ibb.co/5WHS80RD/wenatalforhim.jpg
this is a journal that helps soon to be- or aspiring to be parents. i take a multivitamin called, "WeNatal for Him" WeNatal is a fertility supplement company based in california.
the inside of the journal:
https://i.ibb.co/k282FKL4/parenthood.jpg "50 questions to prepare for parenthood"
and i think to my self... "maybe lauren and her boyfriend are trying to have a baby?" and there is a noticeable pause, an energetic sensation placed
here
but i quickly brush the thought aside once i realize i've already written in the first page... the first page that says, one day i will be a: and i wrote the word Father in it.
no, no, nevermind. this is not a suitable birthday gift- or so i think.
well later that night at dinner Lauren revealed she is pregnant with her baby girl, Ocean. she's naming her ocean because it was her mothers, Susans, favorite thing in the whole world- the one thing she really remembers about her mom.
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incredible. something tried to tell me this would be the perfect birthday gift. but i questioned it, i reasoned out of it. was it a fail?
i don't think so. i can still offer her the book. in fact, i texted her that night and asked: "do you want this?" showing her the pictures i've shared here. "yes!!" she said, absoutely!
but maybe my hesitation served a greater purpose as it pertains to the group study: "hone our telepathy"
i am looking at this word projection more now, and much prefer the word reception over projection. it's the reception i'd like to focus on.
projection is easy if you think about it, we are always projecting, so much that it interferes with the present and we don't know what's of our own gunk or what's actually being received!
it also made me question... where did the thought come from??? this is something for me to sit with and explore.
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that night i got home and somehow ended up watching something terrible. it completely changed my mood. i saw the plane crash in florida. but worse, i heard the audio of the girl talking to air traffic control moments before the crash.
....truly heart/gut wrenching. i don't recommend listening to it. but if you did, then please join me in prayer or at least directing your heart felt attention to the matter.
that was really difficult, and i almost wish i didn't listen or find that clip.
it carried with me into the next morning. i was feeling so lethargic from it all. maybe from the change in time too.
(i'll come back to this. but first)....
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i've been feeling a lot of emotional uncertainty within my self. and one day i received an email as an answer to that...
it's one of those moments where the outside world, in all of its appearances speaks to your internal reality.
the email came from a company called,
"First Community" and the title of the email said:
"Navigate Uncertainty with Confidence."
i was reminded of a few things... "not my story" being something i tell my self when i find my mind going into narration born of pretense and ego driven thoughts. and also, i was reminded of my group and the importance of "Community"
the message came in email at a relevant time marker... 12:33....
i believe these beings, as a part of their service, are able to use numbers like 11:11, 222, 333, etc. as a way to orient awareness. it's kind of like the beginning stages of that direct communication, as a way to orchestrate things that move beyond coincidence, because there will be times when you notice the prompts come in a way that move beyond mere pattern recognition. and this is only the beginning. once the understanding is actualized, and i realize understanding is actualized with gradients, then the prompts evolve. and perhaps one day we're able to perceive more directly the intelligence and personalities responsible for these unique alignments...
anyways.... that saying really stuck with me..."navigate uncertainty with confidence" -----
a continuation....
on oct. 30th i received a similar email...
the email came in at 11:11AM
and speaking of telepathy... it felt like one of those, "are you listening?" moments....
11:11 - Shape a future with less waste
On that same day... as I was driving to the local grocery store- a green truck drives in front of me... and on it- it says: "What if waste powered your community?" i noticed the time - 12:22
...here community is mentioned once again.... and suddenly i'm noticing a change in my demeanor... i'm feeling an expanded state.... i start to get these thoughts as if someone/something is communicating them to me/with me...
i'm reminded a change of seasons is upon us. and that it's time to, "conserve energy."
i thought- "for the next few days i should minimize physical exertion and mental activity"
and without actual words- but as if being given the space to play with this intelligence in a
co-creative fashion the symbol of the condor started to appear within me.
i thought...
"maybe i can evoke the condor?" and there was some agreement, "yes, they are masters at conserving energy."
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yesterday, headed to my car- i saw a handful of condors flying overhead. wow. there they are, i thought.
i was still feeling a little distraught from thinking of the plane crash. i knew not to ignore the suffering, but to simply hold it in my awareness. well... something, again, by way of telepathic communication- had me thinking of the condor, and community... when suddenly i see an entire legion of condors(an exaggeratively large amount) to my left, grounded.
i tried taking a picture- but it came out blurry... yeah, i was driving:
https://i.ibb.co/xtVCc4sw/condor.jpg
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when i get to work, i am surprised to find our part time employee on the clock and helping us(usually there's only two of us on monday). whats interesting is- she, ramona and my self are all wearing maroon. these uncoordinated color alignments always fascinate me. i notice i am usually in a more receptive state as far as my awareness is concerned- whenever these alignments manifest.
that morning, a few customers actually talk to me about the plane crash- as i likewise share with them my heartache.
i begin to feel a sensation,
the pull towards alignment i realize there are symbols occurring that show this orientation as, "in process"...
first... a customers total on the register $111.66
and then, the customer immediately after them... $66.11
that's when a woman walks in- wearing a similar shade of color as my coworkers and i.
she ask something unusual. she says she wants to buy 70 meals. this is a ridiculously large amount of food- most people spend $65 on average... she says she is feeding her film crew, they're making a movie about her life. this woman goes on to explain she runs a non-profit which seems to be about empowering women, and she loves what our company means to her- another woman owned business, and she said she's always wanted to support sharon. so we happily provide her 70 meals, which totaled over $1,000.
this is where things get interesting- and if you've made it this far in the journal, thank you- we're almost done. :-D
ramona(my coworker) is a thespian and they're looking for actors/actresses to help with the film. the lady invites ramona to a conference that is to occur on nov 14th.
14 is a personal number/guide that has helped me see the greater picture. so here i feel 14 is (without using words) asking if i am paying attention.
i go on to ask her what her film is about- it's called the daughters voice.
....apparently, this beautiful woman was raised between a bar and a brothel- witnessed and endured child abuse, her mother was her only friend- but her mother committed suicide when she was 17, and the prayer her mother shared before her death...? "give my daughter the voice i never had"
.... ='(
it is beautiful. and it is still painful. but i was so inspired by her strength and her sense of community. after she left, she sent ramona a video that would help explain the work of the upcoming film... here is that video:
https://vimeo.com/reviews/5c1966d4-54d3 ... /809874660
we all watched it in the store and i just broke down in tears.
i asked for it in a text message which i received at 1:41
here, 14 is present once more:
https://i.ibb.co/23pSH5yt/141.jpg
.... so yesterday was an emotionally heavy day- but beautiful and uplifting at the same time. i was given a newfound sense of strength and understanding for community. for rightly conserving energy- where love, as temperance, is as a prized experience.
all day with customers, after that interaction, i've felt so engaged with the present- treating each customer that comes in with an open heart and a deep sense of communion. treating each form and each moment before me as a sincere moment with god.
and i notice an interesting arch in these experiences...
life and death.
end and beginning.
mother and daughter.
daughter losing mother early in life...
community...
energy conservation.
temperance in many forms.
...be well <3 love, and life ~
ps... and i notice another alignment with my journal and this womans trailer, where the word storm is mentioned twice...
But... I hope that I am serving Love appropriately. And the work place is proving a wonderful crucible. (Now if I can adopt the same mentality everywhere else! 
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That is why I will stay and do everything I can to protect them and their future.
They stopped in as they were traveling from New Orleans back to Ohio, hitting Civil War battlefields along the way. Lucky for me, Chattanooga, TN has much in that area to see. Well...war is never lucky and I suspect the ground still cries where so much inhumanity occurred.
Yep, it has just up and deserted me. I am sure they must have stopped and gotten something to eat on their way back to their hotel. LOL
Silly... But feels very on point with my own relation to 14 lately.
