Discovering Answers, The Living Spirit

[Starwalker]

Hi Eric,

I enjoyed reading your reflections. The born again theme resonated with me. Recently a thought occurred to me in my meditations - today is your birthday. I had just pulled myself out of an intense depressive episode. It seems that the spiritual birth process can be quite painful. The only things you can take with you is what you truly cannot live without. I feel like multiple spiritual births are required as we grow in our awareness of God.

Also, I have had a similar experience with an insect unexpectedly paying me a visit. A black fly flew into my office last week. You don’t see many of those around here in the winter. It landed on a document that was on my desk and stayed there for awhile looking at me and rubbing its legs together. Eventually it flew away and I didn’t see it again. A few days later I came across a YouTube video about the spiritual meaning of seeing insects. The fly is a wake up call to a need for self care, realignment with purpose, and dealing with issues before they get out of hand. And that is a fitting message for me right now. Here’s a link to the video https://youtu.be/KCRxCZ6scNI?si=mO7BbG6z1tr92h2m

The violet race is an intriguing subject in the UB. The white race has absorbed the a higher amount of their superior genes. We are essentially a mix of the blue and violet races. They were capable of many awesome things such as telepathic communication up to 50 miles away using a small gas chamber in their brains. This ability was lost after they defaulted though. Their skin glowed as well, which gave origin to the concept if holy men and women having halos. When people talk of upgrading their DNA, I think this would actually mean the activation of the violet genes that may be repressed in us. It’s certainly interesting to contemplate the possibilities.

Kind regards,
Jon

[happyrain]

Thanks for taking an interest in my rumination Jon, it's nice to know by writing these things out others can feel something and maybe even be inspired. I appreciate what you've shared on the insects too- the last two days I have had a black ant making itself known in the top corner of my shower. I've always understood ants to represent community, teamwork- even fellowships! It was nice to see the video affirm the same.

And, the ladybug is a special Sufi totem of mine. It is the "Divine Messenger" - it's nice to see how my own definitions aren't far off from that of our ancestors and different cultures.

Very cool that the Living Spirit is making itself known to you through the little things too! In this case the fly, which, by the sounds of it- isn't such a little thing after all. But that you acknowledge you are being guided, receiving help... That is enough to humble anyone with an open Heart/open Mind.

We can be particularly sensitive, especially with matters of the Heart, because it is the Heart we are hoping to evolve. By this, I do not mean the organ resting behind our chest. And, these trying times remind us we are indeed students and that there is most certainly a loving and guiding Force teaching us in our ups and downs...

For me... I think I wish to hone that awareness, to include an expanded sense of Being- no matter what I'm doing. It may not mean anything in the end, except for me, it does mean peace and comfort which is a great something after all. To feel connected with... To understand the living language, even when I don't understand... In other words- to recognize the partnership and to grow with Faith.

I am happy you have this time for rest, for pulling your self out from the mud- and even time to recognize the Divine Assistance ever present in your waking life.
God is great~

[happyrain]

Hey Jon, the moth has been appearing in my apartment lately! Wowza...

I know this insect is drawn to the light... and goes through a metamorphosis... Moth to me is more lunar than solar. That's just my opinion.

And right now I am feeling a call to change undesirable energies because I don't want to stagnate.

It's interesting to think about... With all of our desires to change... How much do we actually change? And how much remains the same?

Embracing change can be noble, but so can acknowledging that which is changeless.

We seek progress, experience and transcendence... So, all of these struggles make sense. I do hope to filter my brain in a way that allows for a greater capacity of receptivity and to strengthen my will in a way that means my interaction with all that is yields greater fruit.

I should say... If we face stagnation- not to crunch up our energy and hate. But... maybe we need to place what is it we are stuck with in the light- question, as co-creators, what aspects do we wish to keep? How can we shape this energy?

I've learned you can't kill bad habits, but you can replace them with healthier ones. In a similar manner, perhaps we can help shape the energy present in us producing undesirable experiences.

I think this is a part of the progression we seek.

...(Sorry, don't know who this we is- you caught me speaking aloud... lecturing myself here!_!)

There is much happening within, in me, that needs to be better understood rather than cast aside or rejected~

One of my favorite quotes...
"Ever afterward, though the dance of creation change around me in the hall of eternity, I shall be the same."

The I she is describing in this quote... Is not the I we so often identify as. . .
Hmm~

[Starwalker]

Hey Eric. Since your last post was addressed me, I'd say the "we" you speak of is you and me, and anyone else who resonates with your words. I think we all feel a longing for our ilk, as you put it. Sometimes it takes awhile to realize that someone is akin to you since we can be blinded by our own egos, fears, and prejudices.

Your moth visits remind me of the picture you have in your apartment of the large moth. Since moths are nocturnal, I think they are more lunar than solar as well. I think this speaks to reflected light versus the source of light. Moths use light for navigation. They are attracted to artificial light because it confuses their navigation systems. They can spend hours circling a light bulb, but it doesn't get them anywhere. This is a profound analogy for our own attractions. We are often drawn to things and beings which do not serve our higher purpose. Sometimes we have to take a step back and reorient our navigation systems to Source.

Change is slow. Attempts at radical change often result in stagnation or even regression. We need time to adjust to change. Replacing bad habits with good ones is a great strategy. I find that change also requires discipline. Sometimes we have to forego short term gratifications in exchange for something greater that we desire in the future. Short term pain for long term gain.

As far as I know, the only thing that is unchangeable in us is our personalities. We have yet to truly understand our own personalities, much less those of others. But in time we will come to know ourselves as God knows us.

[happyrain]

Even the light form the moon reflects the One Sun in our system~ Our shared Light!

Your interpretations are rightly so, I am happy you would include your wisdom in the process.

Me? I see it a little differently- I see the Moth as drawn to the light, holding itself to the light(reflective light) For the sake of reflection! And interiorizing in the manner we are is not a negative or a waste of time. I see divine hands holding up light.

Often, being put in this space, allows me that greater interaction with ALL that IS... The one source, behind all the various forms- real, unreal.. Artificial- Superficial, Lasting- Worthwhile...

We forge, we choose, we fall, we get back up-
The fellowship continues! The unique contributions we are, here to digest.

Now, the day beckons! Let's get to it. *Tips hat*

[Sandy]

I love you guys.

[happyrain]

Two morning ago, while laying in bed... I heard an alien voice. It was similar to the effect of inhaling helium, but it wasn't as high-pitched. It was distinct, different from the normal chatter happening in my thoughts. It said the word, "love" twice.

Later that morning, while driving to work... The sky was gray, but it was still bright. A slightly cloudy day with chance of rain. I saw a sudden flash of white light, and a white static lightning bolt race horizontally across the sky. I don't think it was actual lightning- it could have been. But the sensations associated with this experience were incredible. I felt partially out of my body, and I felt that same bolt of light reach across the lower and rear hemisphere of my brain. I felt connected to the bolt... As if what was happening outside my physical body, was also happening inside...

Last night I had a few interesting dreams. One was about a dog biting me. I understand this dream having a personal meaning, which is separate from the incidents I wish to share. For brevity's sake, I will go into the other meaning I have discovered. Another element in my dream last night was my Dad mentioning Jesus' daughter or sister. Please do not feel the need to correct my dream with scriptural knowledge whether or not Jesus had an actual sibling or daughter. This is my personal experience I am sharing- things needn't be taken so literal.

I mention Christ because the themes coming together are interesting to me, and something "Christ-like." Like Love... Like Merging with Love.

What I am beginning to understand...
If I try to think about it from the "TA" concept... A fragment of God... Or if I try to think of it from new-age concepts, a dimension of living and loving personalities beyond 3D earth space-senses... To me, it is about merging with the self beyond this immediate point-consciousness/3D body. There is a reality beyond our ordinary perceptions. We've been given taste, and I am choosing to merge with this intelligence.. A Self greater than the 3D Self.

It happens in all 1111 moments, where the external speaks to the internal. It happened with the lightning bolt racing across the sky... Simultaneously being felt within me...

While I was working out this morning I was having thoughts about peace and wishing others a peaceful/thoughtful day. I started having thoughts about this merging- when suddenly the TV was showing something on the news. It was a segment about a woman named, "Grammy" who had been attacked and bitten by a dog. Of course this made me think about my dream last night, being bitten by little dogs. At the same time, I recognized an intelligence communicating with me in this field of MIND beyond this immediate sense-body identification. A reality greater than the self we know.
I was left on my knees by a profound sensation, I was being guided to inhale the environment and imagine myself becoming one with everything around me in that moment. Inhaling, exhaling, expanding... Merging. That's when the news segment ended and the TV flashed Bob Marley with the words, "One Love and Peace."

I had to stop, because the intelligence guiding me reminded me I was just day dreaming about wishing others peace... And the intelligence reminded me of the very alien voice I heard yesterday morning who said, "love."

These discoveries are the greatest part of my existence, the greatest joy I have for this present incarnation- is recognizing, learning and attempting to merge with this intelligence. Perhaps this is the fusion with TA spoken of in the UB... It interest me that Christ or the family of Christ was also mentioned in my dreams last night. So that may be the next thing I decide to read if I pick the UB back up... The reality of the TA and the fusion with the TA... For me, it's all about merging and carrying On- after this 3D host body is turned to dust... Because we are more than our physical bodies... And life is more intimate than the limitations we impose when defining Self and out interactions with solely through the 3D host medium.

EDIT: I just received a physical touch and tickle on my lower right elbow!! I am getting electric goose bumps all over!!

[Sandy]

Little brother, I could listen to your experiences and your thoughts on them all day.
Thank you for the peace you so easily share with all of us.

[happyrain]

Thank you Sandy, I appreciate you taking an interest in my personal journey- and granting us a place to archive our discoveries. It's been very helpful for me to write and share.
If there is anything in particular you can relate to, or anything you have experienced differently- I welcome your perspectives.

Did you get a chance to see my "cool prompt" thread "14 strikes again?" What incredibly powerful prompts I received those days!

The major one being that I dreamt of a power outage the night before and the next day we lost power at work. They said 1,000 people lost power and it would come back at 4PM...

1 and 4 right there making itself known. And before that happened I discovered 14 cents, it was a process of becoming even more present than whatever we call this level of present-ness.

This has been an amazing journey, and my roots start right here with the 1111 community. Though the board is relatively quiet these days, I have an affinity for the members and nostalgia for those early efforts towards this entirely creative process...

I had a contact experience the other day and I wanted to share! So, here is another long read for anyone interested And another noteworthy discovery for a most appropriately titled journal:

Fusion with the TA... Becoming aware of a Living and Loving Spirit... Becoming aware of the intimate relationship we share with our personal fragment of God- Becoming aware of higher intelligence's assisting us towards this fusion- A romantic entanglement with the Lord

The other day, a friend "in my circle" mentioned group consciousness and it made me think about the ways we relate with a being of greater intelligence not bound to the 3D earth human experience.

I am beginning to see this being, 14, as something we are a part of. I have not seen 14 in its true form, only through the mediums we share- communication... and only in a manner in which my limited brain can interpret.

But 14 continues to communicate with me, with us, with those who wish to hear and see. I don't know if you saw, Sandy- in the Hansavedas fellowship thread(found in the misc. section) Swami Vidyadhishananda says Lord Kalki has descended upon Earth September 14th 2014.

All those 14's once again... I think we are a part of the Divine Being though we aren't really aware what that means or looks like. I wonder if all these reality distortions with the 14 prompt is a natural byproduct of 14 simply existing on some plane we lack insight towards.

There is a threshold imposed between realms(But I believe we can transcend limitations)... I can only share my desire for contact as example.

One time... while using Dr. Greers CE5 contact method(at the suggestion of an astral pulse forum member) I was visited by a self that cares for me. Could this be 14? I don't know... But, the contact happened later in between wake and sleep- an OBE and in my backyard where I originally tried the CE5 contact method earlier that day.

This intelligence chose a form I was familiar with, rich with meaning as it pertains to my immediate incarnation. The dalmatian is our family dog. A tradition my mother started before my birth. We have almost 40 years of dalmatians in our family.

A sample from the day I recorded that contact experience...

I go to the backyard, it's not as sunny as it was in the first projection. And there's no rainy snow anymore either. It's nighttime and I'm standing in the backyard and get the idea to use the CE5 contact method while in the astral. Right away I am feeling assistance. A part of me is almost nervous for how much more powerful I am feeling and witnessing the experience. I ask the guides to help me broadcast the milky way galaxy in my minds eye. I see it in ways I've never seen it before. I instantly channel it down into our universe, to our planet, to my continent, and into my backyard.

I feel as if there are 3 or 4 beings with me now.

Suddenly the white dalmatian puppy I saw in the initial attempt is here with me by my side. I am a bit perplexed why it still chose the dalmatian form. I am asking if it is because I am not ready to see this being in its true form. At this point in the experience everything has become extremely heavy. Like it's difficult to be in this state.
In fact the dalmatian puppy only appears in my peripherals to my right side and kind of like a blur image. Like there's some wall between us. And I wasn't asking directly but I was asking telepathically, almost like a conversation with my self. The puppy is trying to push forward and I am trying to accept it more and more into my field. I intuit that this is as good as it's going to get for now, that I am not ready to see the true form. I believe this being relays this to me before I wake up again. I am somewhat contesting with these beings who happen to be observing that I AM ready and want to see, but a part of me deep down knows that's not true.

Two nights ago I had another contact experience. I believe this is the same ET, the same loving intelligence... Possibly 14, a group consciousness- quite possibly more than one being as we understand and have our own being.

This part of my dream felt realer than real. And again, the contact experience happened in my parents backyard, the home I grew up in. This time, instead of taking the form of a dalmatian- the being took the form of a hybrid animal. A baby deer the size of a horse with ram horns. I've had important "contact dreams" in my backyard- as if to say, pay attention- I am here, I am working with you. It could be that I is to be replaced with We. It could be that the intelligence does not care if understood as singular or plural. I don't know. But I am understanding, with certainty, that we do receive help.

As we become aware of that help, the amazing ways in which Spirit communicates with our unique personality- every single person... Every individuation... Well, it's incredible to think about isn't it?



The dream itself was peaceful, the being came up to me and placed its nose in my palm before I opened the gate for it to leave peacefully.

I was less lucid this time, but the intelligence chose a unique form I'd remember to research its meaning. And it seems, more important than being able to see the beings responsible is the actual message they wish to impart. The actual message has more to do with ones personal relationship with God- they are literally helping us align ourselves in the manner most desired with the One most cherished.

It's as if I'm always being brought back to square one. But I am extremely grateful for every effort and every inch closer towards actualization. I don't know how far I will get in this lifetime... Haha- as I am typing this from my local coffee shop... The music is playing, "I want to break free"
Which is what I am thinking about as I type this. That's the *present- that's being more Present than present. The harmonious relationship with the inner and outer.

My mind dances and wonders at the relationship with our divine helpers, what an intelligence beyond 3D Earth human senses as a personality actually looks like. And, I do think personality could contain multiple beings- but we're not able to comprehend that. It's a different world, but it's one we have a part in. And if we choose, we may be granted insight. If we wish, we can learn.

And Love to you Sister~ Thanks for all your support!
You'll have to tell me how you've been, what entertains your mind and heart these days?

[happyrain]

I will divide these entries post by post, totaling three post so as to create a pause in what would otherwise be a long read.

Contact with HuwaRei (pronounced oo-wah-ray) ... The Peacock Angel ... Mother Goddess, Son of Man ... Revelations into Past Life connections:

Inspired by a member of another forum, I prayed to God before going to sleep- "What is real?"
..."What is reality?" "What is the nature of reality?"

I didn't have much to recall by way of dream before waking up near 1:30AM to use the restroom.
My mind was distracted with thoughts of strange encounters with new customers from earlier in the day. I was not enjoying these thoughts. It was difficult to fall back asleep. So, I again asked God... "What is real?"

My room is very bright at night, I live in an apartment complex with an artificial light attached to a pillar resting just outside my bedroom window. For this reason I've installed black curtains in my bedroom. The only light that comes through it now is near the top of the curtain rod, it makes all the difference.

As I'm laying there, thinking on my discomfort, my inability to sleep- I see my old friend Joe. He's in my room showing me a mudra with his hand. I don't understand why he is so insistent on showing me, and he proceeds to explain to me some new discovery with his connection to Egypt and it worries him. He is concerned by this jewelry which has attached itself to his left side. Suddenly he shows me the amulet bracelet around his left wrist and on the same hand... what looks like, probably, a ruby red and gold ring on his finger. He is trying to talk with me but I am still laying in bed unable to sleep. I can feel something in our connection.

Suddenly I see, in my amazement, a peacock resting atop the black curtain rod in my room. And like that I hear, "HuwaReiiiiiii" deep form within my core- a completely different voice, singing/chanting this name. "HuwaREIIIIII- HuwaREIIIIIII" each syllable is causing the peacock to rustle its feathers- the procession picks up when suddenly the peacock spreads its tail feathers, completely blocking out the light coming into my room. I don't stop- I chant once more and the bird swoops down off my curtain rod and comes directly towards me onto the bed. Its wings are spread and now I realize I am in between wake and sleep as his feathers and body engulf my minds eye.

I wake up in a state of panic and shortened breath. The bird came so close to me, unafraid. Brazen.

This entire time I thought I was awake, laying there in my bed... Joe, my friend... The peacock angel, my vision- everything was so real...

For this reason, I am awake now recording. It's 4:02AM... This experience ended around 3:30AM...

[happyrain]

Continued Revelations Journaled

I can not sleep, and sudden insights/possibilities are entering my mind. It is my belief, and one I must explore more-
HuwaRei is a descendent of the Peacock Angel.
Joe my friend with connections to Egypt... Joe was someone I had a spiritual connection to in this life. When I asked my higher self who is Joe? That's when I learned the word Lemurian. "Joe is Lemurian" This happened years ago... The insights keeping me awake are...

Joe and I knew each other in a past life. We were children, we played together. The sand was red and the homes were made of clay(this was an older vision).

Joe in this vision(my most recent hypnagogic experience posted above), is scared of his inheritance. He is connected by royal blood. Some connection, possibly Egyptian. Possibly, the interpretation may be that I am scared of contact.
There is something more, with HuwaRei - this being is quite possibly connected to Ancient Mesopotamia. Probable descendent of the Peacock Angel. An order of Sufi Mystics revere a deity, my deity- the peacock angel... I am somehow connected. The Sufism connection are meant to be wayfinders/guides as it pertains to my worship, reverence and understanding.

The feeling of sadness with HuwaRei is real. That's because it has everything to do with the great fall. Fallen Angels. A lore that has been distorted, a history that may be lost. There was a disconnect, but it is not an evil thing. This is what I must learn/discover. This is where many of my memories of fallen angels continue to speak to me in my subconscious.

There is a giant friend, a connection to the Nephilim, encircled in my array of personalities beyond my immediate self identification. For now, his name is assumed to be Rohar.

Though I posture these things with a more speculative tone, they are coming into my mind as quite direct and literal. I am in shock and awe.

The AI does not do it justice, but I am enjoying the assistance AI provides-

[happyrain]

Final Entry and Notation for today:

I just woke back up... I couldn't sleep- all of these insights and answers were coming to me... And I finally fell asleep around 5am-ISH...

I woke up to a woman saying my name. It was so real, another contact experience. She sounded Arabic or Iranian. Except. She was saying my name as it is today, and using a tone my mother in this life would have used to call me as a child. Except she had such an accent, like my name was unnatural to her- but she wanted to wake me in a way a mother would a child.
"Edek"
"Edek"

My name is Eric. I woke up thinking my mother, but not my current mother, was calling me from across the hall. I swear the voice was clear as day coming from the kitchen outside my bedroom. I called back out, "Mother" but now... this waking space, feels less real than the space between wake and sleep. There is no woman with black hair calling to me. Instead there are the sound of birds outside my bed. It's 6:30AM.

The dream I was waking up from ended with me visiting my old Persian boss from THIS lifetime. All of these clues... Persian visitor... Iranian sounding Mother make me believe that the original being HuwaRei is "Mother" as I had interpreted a few years ago.

Now, these clues affirm a personal connection to Sufism, Ancient Mesopotamia and/or Iran.


***lastly... Spirit is ALIVE. And, as if answering my prayers, "what is reality?" this is the awakin email to drop in my inbox early AM...
The Fish, The Net, And The Water

Once the fish said to the turtle:

“I have heard about a huge thing that is called ‘the ocean.’ Does it really exist? I am looking around in search of it, but I can only see sand, shells and other fishes. Where is the ocean?”

The Turtle answered:

“The ocean is everywhere, inside and outside you, but if you look for a particular thing, you’ll miss it.”

[...]

All that you can perceive, know or understand is always limited to a particular form; it is not the Whole.

It is only the map, not the territory.

A map is made of several concepts and words that are linked together by the net of our thought, in order to give us a schematic as well as abstract view of the world we live in. It is just a useful tool, though unfit to capture the true essence of reality.

And...

Reality is not a problem that should be solved, however complex we can imagine it is; reality is a mystery indeed.

We cannot ‘solve’ a mystery as if it were a problem; we can only fall into it and realize that we don’t need to ‘understand’ it, because we are it anyway.

https://www.awakin.org/v2/read/view.php?tid=2603

[Sandy]

Eric...I am beyond words at your experience...
...and ending with the essay that arrived in your inbox concerning reality.
(Which was brilliant in and of itself!)

Thank you...I am feeling the tingles of spirit as I type...There is so much for us...answers, love, support, friendship...
All we need do is ask, and know the answers are forthcoming. We are loved.

Thank you, my friend, for sharing your journey.
xxSandy