ThankYou Sandy, what You telling here is exactely how I feel , I also like to tell that my wake-up call in the year 2000 was almost the same as now but in that time was the fear and panic much extreme and heavy as now , I came out of that period trough a long process ( it is a long story to telling here I think You and All our friends can read my story on my home made website http://joshuael.djextreme.nl/ .Sandy wrote:Dear Joshauel,
I am sorry that you have experienced so much tension and sorrow in your life. Many people who post here understand how that feels and reach out to you in understanding and Love. Sometimes we hang onto the hurts and hard things that happen to us and replay them in our minds over and over again. I admit I have a tendency to do this myself if I am not careful and conscious of what I am doing. Usually something sad or fearful touches me and it is very easy to remember other sad things, making me feel worse and worse. I call this spiralling downwards and that is almost what it feels like, as if you are falling into a deep dark hole. What has helped me in these situations is to recognize what I am doing, which is, in a way, punishing myself. So perhaps, in my case, this could fall into the area of self esteem issues that haven't been addressed. I guess what I am trying to say is that we can be much harder on ourselves then what other people can be. And in reality, it is the way we feel about ourselves that is of most importance, not what other people think since we cannot control that in the least. It is the way we think of ourselves that can dictate whether we allow ourselves to feel happy, fulfilled and peaceful. I just want you to know that I see and intuit wonderful things from you. You have a loving human personality and that goes a long way in this world and in the next realm. It is in allowing love to fill us with peace and hope and in giving this same love to those around us that we truly progress our growing souls. So you are in this moment growing in what is most important in eternity, Love.
Please remember that you are a much loved and precious child to the Divine Creator of all that is... this has helped me many times when I was feeling lost, fearful and alone. We are not alone and we have guidance within us, God's spirit to lift us and assist us in every thing we attempt to do. It recognizes our successes and even failings as being equally important since this helps us to grow and progress into a strong, loving and knowledgeable human and eternal being.
Before I close my post, I remember that we have discussed panic attacks on another thread in the healing forum. You might find this helpful and interesting...
Any Tips For Panic Attacks
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I also think that in doing the relaxation exercise that is exercise 2 and then moving eventually into the Akashic Construct exercise that you will find a kind of peaceful inner help. It seems often times as we become relaxed and in a calm alpha mental state that healing has a better opportunity to take place and with lasting effects. There is no need to rush though...take it slow and steady one step at a time, okay?
Please know that you have friends here and we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers as you work through what is troubling you.
With Love,
Sandy
What I miss the most are my friends of the other Dimension I was used to stay in touch " I know They are always around me supporting me with They Love " I know that the contact between Me and Them is disturbed becouse of my Fear and Tension , I dont Fear the contact or as I was used to to be as visual as thelepatic 2way communication with Them * that was giving me courage and the feeling to Not never be alone like I feel now , but like that time I'm now busy again trough this wonderfull CD to reconnect My self again ( I agree with George on what is saying in the below post.. ) I go trough track one and track 2 as long as it take to find first my balace, trust and rust before I move to track 3 , I dont rush or push but I let Universe let It happen again , I learned a truly lesson to not Rush when I was learning and getting attuned with Reiki ( dont do all the 3 levels in one time but My rushing attitude coused Me a Nerve break-down after 2 heavy and High attunement in 1 week that time " I learned that My Soul could have Them but I forgotten I have a Beautyfull Human body ....
Dear Friends I stay determinated and trustfull on track even My healing process can be sometime really heavy I go trough It , THANKYOU for Your Support, Love , Toughts and Prayers on Me !!!!
Sandy I will read the topic You gived to me , ThankYou
Love You ALL
Bless
Giuseppe ( Joshuael )