how easy it is for us to be distracted. we live in a time where critical thinking and listening skills are slowly fading. we have information overload at our fingertips and become easily absorbed in a much faster pace of life, distracting us from our greater desires and simpler realities. i understand the importance of meditating and believe it takes a constant reminder to keep conscious of ones goals... whether it's alcohol or just trying to be more present- whatever it may be we set these test up for ourselves and don't immediately recognize that's what's happening...
i've talked about this with Sandy before and understand that life is full of ups and downs.the lesson here is to never give up. the spirit of continuance, of trying. so we fall down from time to time, fine. i am just unimpressed by how narrow minded i can be at times. it's wild to think how easy it is to slip up but i believe our phones and social media's contribute to these distractions. there's actually a lot i wish to quit and i'm sure many of us feel similar. sometimes this journey becomes enjoyable, like i look forward to fighting another day. i think writing it out helps solidify the direction i want to go... so maybe these are appropriate steps for anyone trying to quit or achieve something they've always wanted. write it out, don't be afraid to talk about it to your peers- even if they don't agree, don't be afraid to take a stance on something publicly. but it isn't enough to just feel good about something just to slip up again. don't get too comfortable... meditate or pray to stay focused, read. turn your phone off at night. how damaging is our phone? i really feel like i've become more addicted to this, "smart phone" over the course of a year- we do everything on our phones and keep it by our sides constantly. i think it interferes with our thinking abilities. alright, that's all i got for now... had to share, there's a bit of a spiritual pursuit here and i was hoping to get others opinions if you find any talking points in my post, please let me know what you think.
peace
B So I allowed a little bit of worry, thinking it wouldn't derail me. 
Still I know I am doing the best I can right now and also know with each day comes the potential to become all I dream of... So I am sure as time goes on, little by little as I allow myself to feel safe again in this benevolent universe that I will derive my comfort from less transitory things. working on it as we speak. 
) or whatever else you are substituting for the alcohol. (helps to to really feel and taste it in your mind as you say it envisaging as many senses as you can to help make it real to you.) Early childhood educators do this with little ones. We speak to them asking them to do things in the positive...Like "let's use our inside voices and our walking feet." Always turning things into the positive and congratulating them for their successes works wonders too! So think about it, aren't we just big children? right? Our brains will still respond to positive encouragement just as the "littlies". Top this off by telling yourself over and over what a good, no what a GREAT job you are doing. If you have a slip up...go easy on yourself and say, "no worries, not the end of the world. It will still be okay." Or, "That's okay, we've come a long way and still doing better ever day." Reward yourself in positive ways...hey...can't hurt right? 
ai yi yi
