My Story - The Crazy 1's
Posted: Wed Jan 16, 2013 6:02 am
I'm not really sure where to start. I found myself on your website tonight as a result of a month-long search for answers. I've recently encountered recurring episodes with 1:11 and 11:11 and derivations thereof. In a vacuum, this would not have sent me searching for an answer, but it has became extremely odd, almost like I cannot escape it. I try to ignore it, but it continues to occur. At the exact moment of 11:11 or 1:11, my subconscious mind compels me to take an action that brings me into direct contact with that number. Honestly, I've put it out of my mind many times over the years as it comes and goes. The latest run has been happening since the spring and has really flared up recently. Just tonight, as I exited the bathroom, something forced me to look over at the clock...you guessed it 11:11! That is the third encounter today.
I've repeatedly tried hard to ignore the possible meaning, partly because I've been afraid to face the reality of what might be expected of me (weird, huh). Since childhood, I've had odd encounters. Sometimes I just know things. Not anything that I should know or have had any exposure to previously, but rather just a spontaneous feeling of confidence that I know exactly what will happen or a fact of a matter. Sometimes it is so laser sharp that it creates extreme uneasiness. The most lucid of these was the sinking knowledge of the explosion of the Challenger. As I drove in my car, I was listening to the radio and moments before the explosion, I said aloud “...and Challenger has just exploded” or something to that effect. As the announcers reported this reality seconds later, I was completely freaked out. This type of occurrence had happened before and would happen again with varying degrees of significance.
This also has translated into a keen ability to see into the soul of people. I've always had an incredible ability to know and understand people whom I'd only just met. This has created a burden at times, especially when it involves people who we might classify as “a wolf in sheep's clothing”. While I'll be terribly cautious, others see what the “wolf” wants them to see. I see the truth as if it was an effortless assessment. Sometimes I feel horrible that I'm judging people, but it has kept me safe and successful.
Anyway, I read many of the thoughts here and feel an incredible amount of sympatico. I've long felt a calling to make things right, but have been too cowardly to answer that calling in a meaningful way. I have made attempts, but have worked within a framework where the people around me don't understand the depth of things that comes naturally to me. I have a natural ability to bring ideas and people together, even people with disparate thoughts and ideas. It is funny how similar people are when you remove all of the misconceptions, irrelevancies and trivial differences. All of these gift made me very successful prior to pulling back from mainstream society.
I'm left wondering why this is all hitting now. The recent tragedy in Newtown really started things spinning, as they say, “out of control”. Could all of this have been leading up to December 21, 2012? Several recent events converged on that date for me. Strangely enough, the equinox was scheduled for 11:12 on that day. Some have said that it was originally 11:11, but was later changed. What they may have missed is the embedded clue 12/21 11:12. Perhaps it is the beginning of the next phase of our journey. I don't know...I can't even believe that I'm writing this.
I've kept all of this inside for decades. The last time I shared glimpses of this side of me was twenty years ago at a friend's party. He had a friend from work there who decided to engage in a round of Ouija that another gal and I were doing. Ouija has been something that I've used in the past to channel energy/information, but have abandoned it because it freaks people out. I knew nothing about this guy, nor the person who I was channeling energy with. He began asking questions that we began answering through the Ouija. Suffice to say that he was totally freaked out when we dug up some very unpleasant memories from his past. He insisted that we were colluding with his friend and co-worker - something that wasn't true. I don't know who I communicated with that night (or any other time I used Ouija). Perhaps it is my own inner energy – a window to my own abilities. I don't know.
I've never shared any of this to this extent with anyone in my life, including my wife of 20 years. Now, most people would probably think I'm a total loon, but perhaps it all makes sense to you. I'm being compelled to share this information. Perhaps it is another meaningless event in my life, but what if it isn't?
Another early sign for me - my username comes from my e-mail address, which comes from Touched By An Angel. I was always drawn in by the show for some unknown reason. I adopted the "Angelboy" persona over ten years ago...coincidence, perhaps. Another coincidence - I recently discovered that John Dye who played Andrew (Angel of Death) died on 1/10/11 (note the 1111). Just weird!
Well, tonight I finally acknowledged verbally my acceptance aloud and gave open access to my thoughts to whomever is trying to communicate with me. I guess my next step is to keep reading. It is good to have found this place...I feel less lonely already. Thank you to all for listening.
Randy AKA Angelboy
I've repeatedly tried hard to ignore the possible meaning, partly because I've been afraid to face the reality of what might be expected of me (weird, huh). Since childhood, I've had odd encounters. Sometimes I just know things. Not anything that I should know or have had any exposure to previously, but rather just a spontaneous feeling of confidence that I know exactly what will happen or a fact of a matter. Sometimes it is so laser sharp that it creates extreme uneasiness. The most lucid of these was the sinking knowledge of the explosion of the Challenger. As I drove in my car, I was listening to the radio and moments before the explosion, I said aloud “...and Challenger has just exploded” or something to that effect. As the announcers reported this reality seconds later, I was completely freaked out. This type of occurrence had happened before and would happen again with varying degrees of significance.
This also has translated into a keen ability to see into the soul of people. I've always had an incredible ability to know and understand people whom I'd only just met. This has created a burden at times, especially when it involves people who we might classify as “a wolf in sheep's clothing”. While I'll be terribly cautious, others see what the “wolf” wants them to see. I see the truth as if it was an effortless assessment. Sometimes I feel horrible that I'm judging people, but it has kept me safe and successful.
Anyway, I read many of the thoughts here and feel an incredible amount of sympatico. I've long felt a calling to make things right, but have been too cowardly to answer that calling in a meaningful way. I have made attempts, but have worked within a framework where the people around me don't understand the depth of things that comes naturally to me. I have a natural ability to bring ideas and people together, even people with disparate thoughts and ideas. It is funny how similar people are when you remove all of the misconceptions, irrelevancies and trivial differences. All of these gift made me very successful prior to pulling back from mainstream society.
I'm left wondering why this is all hitting now. The recent tragedy in Newtown really started things spinning, as they say, “out of control”. Could all of this have been leading up to December 21, 2012? Several recent events converged on that date for me. Strangely enough, the equinox was scheduled for 11:12 on that day. Some have said that it was originally 11:11, but was later changed. What they may have missed is the embedded clue 12/21 11:12. Perhaps it is the beginning of the next phase of our journey. I don't know...I can't even believe that I'm writing this.
I've kept all of this inside for decades. The last time I shared glimpses of this side of me was twenty years ago at a friend's party. He had a friend from work there who decided to engage in a round of Ouija that another gal and I were doing. Ouija has been something that I've used in the past to channel energy/information, but have abandoned it because it freaks people out. I knew nothing about this guy, nor the person who I was channeling energy with. He began asking questions that we began answering through the Ouija. Suffice to say that he was totally freaked out when we dug up some very unpleasant memories from his past. He insisted that we were colluding with his friend and co-worker - something that wasn't true. I don't know who I communicated with that night (or any other time I used Ouija). Perhaps it is my own inner energy – a window to my own abilities. I don't know.
I've never shared any of this to this extent with anyone in my life, including my wife of 20 years. Now, most people would probably think I'm a total loon, but perhaps it all makes sense to you. I'm being compelled to share this information. Perhaps it is another meaningless event in my life, but what if it isn't?
Another early sign for me - my username comes from my e-mail address, which comes from Touched By An Angel. I was always drawn in by the show for some unknown reason. I adopted the "Angelboy" persona over ten years ago...coincidence, perhaps. Another coincidence - I recently discovered that John Dye who played Andrew (Angel of Death) died on 1/10/11 (note the 1111). Just weird!
Well, tonight I finally acknowledged verbally my acceptance aloud and gave open access to my thoughts to whomever is trying to communicate with me. I guess my next step is to keep reading. It is good to have found this place...I feel less lonely already. Thank you to all for listening.
Randy AKA Angelboy
And so I decided to maybe make this one a little shorter especially since Vanessa did such a lovely job of welcoming you and providing helpful information. 
