In a nanosecond everything changed
Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2012 7:54 pm
I have posted once here before because I thought I was going crazy. For two years my life has been challenging with work, relationships, self doubt and family illness. I had been seeing 1234 everywhere and in the past many months to a year I've been seeing 11:11. I have been labeled the "Doubting Thomas" by the Church I used to attend years ago. In a way it was a compliment because I have to ask questions. I am an Analyst by trade, and in an analyst's world there is no room for "faith" or "hope". There must be evidence - proof and a concrete solution. I do not claim to know anything about any spiritual powers.
From reading previous posts I came to believe that 1234 is for Change and 1111 or 11:11, for me is like being tapped on the shoulder "Kent, we are here. You are not alone". I have experienced many events in my life from addiction, death of my brothers, abuse, terminal cancer etc. Somehow I knew and know that these events, if I was open, were there to teach me something. I am still here. I shouldn't be. No I'm not crazy. So I have been seeking, and seeking and seeking for the past 40 odd years for an answer - there is the analyst in me. My bookcase is full of spiritual and various religious teachings and nothing to prove to me that there is anything but science. No spiritual world whatsoever.
I have read, and now believe that the 11:11 phenomenen is a very personal thing. An event happened on Thursday that made it all come together - for me. I was undergoing another life crisis. I was at work. In the midst of the crisis all within 10 minutes everything that was in crisis at work and in my personal life was reversed into a very positive thing. I sat at my desk head in hands exhausted and confused how all this "stuff" could be reversed so fast without my doing anything. I raised my head, without purpose looked at my computer screen, as it was directly in front of me. The time???? 11:11 and it stood out. I could not tell you what else was on the screen. In that second "doubting thomas" disappeared. I felt lighter, blissful actually, and I'm never blissful. I could almost feel the tap on the shoulder - "See we are here". That was it. This analyst experienced a deeply personal and profound spiritual experience. I am 52 and never thought I would ever experience this.
You see if I hadn't been seeing 1234 and 1111 for the past couple of years this event would have meant nothing. I know I am not alone.
The night before this I couldn't sleep. I was completely defeated and I've survived a lot so to feel defeated is very unpleasant. I had, had enough. I put my hands out to I don't know what and said - "help". The next day....well you decide. I know this was the wakeup call. And I guess I did do something to have all this change. I said "help".
And to just add. The next day I had just got of the phone with a "difficult" staff member. I kept my cool. After all I was and am still in bliss. I use my IPhone at work to listen to music. Right after that phone call I tapped the screen as it had dimmed and the time in huge numbers.....11:11
Fear, anger, negativity fell away leaving Love, humility, acceptance and positivity - hope.
You can say this is all a bunch of garbage, and I'm ok with that......but I assure you - I am loved and not alone anymore.
Love....
From reading previous posts I came to believe that 1234 is for Change and 1111 or 11:11, for me is like being tapped on the shoulder "Kent, we are here. You are not alone". I have experienced many events in my life from addiction, death of my brothers, abuse, terminal cancer etc. Somehow I knew and know that these events, if I was open, were there to teach me something. I am still here. I shouldn't be. No I'm not crazy. So I have been seeking, and seeking and seeking for the past 40 odd years for an answer - there is the analyst in me. My bookcase is full of spiritual and various religious teachings and nothing to prove to me that there is anything but science. No spiritual world whatsoever.
I have read, and now believe that the 11:11 phenomenen is a very personal thing. An event happened on Thursday that made it all come together - for me. I was undergoing another life crisis. I was at work. In the midst of the crisis all within 10 minutes everything that was in crisis at work and in my personal life was reversed into a very positive thing. I sat at my desk head in hands exhausted and confused how all this "stuff" could be reversed so fast without my doing anything. I raised my head, without purpose looked at my computer screen, as it was directly in front of me. The time???? 11:11 and it stood out. I could not tell you what else was on the screen. In that second "doubting thomas" disappeared. I felt lighter, blissful actually, and I'm never blissful. I could almost feel the tap on the shoulder - "See we are here". That was it. This analyst experienced a deeply personal and profound spiritual experience. I am 52 and never thought I would ever experience this.
You see if I hadn't been seeing 1234 and 1111 for the past couple of years this event would have meant nothing. I know I am not alone.
The night before this I couldn't sleep. I was completely defeated and I've survived a lot so to feel defeated is very unpleasant. I had, had enough. I put my hands out to I don't know what and said - "help". The next day....well you decide. I know this was the wakeup call. And I guess I did do something to have all this change. I said "help".
And to just add. The next day I had just got of the phone with a "difficult" staff member. I kept my cool. After all I was and am still in bliss. I use my IPhone at work to listen to music. Right after that phone call I tapped the screen as it had dimmed and the time in huge numbers.....11:11
Fear, anger, negativity fell away leaving Love, humility, acceptance and positivity - hope.
You can say this is all a bunch of garbage, and I'm ok with that......but I assure you - I am loved and not alone anymore.
Love....
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