Newbie rambeling on- but a question for all.
Posted: Thu May 10, 2012 3:57 am
Hello all!! I have been seeing 11 11 for close to two years now. At first, I really didn't think much of it. Now, I am starting to see 11 11 at LEAST 2 to 3 times per day. I decided I was going to google it and was shocked to see that so many people also see it. I came across this message board tonight, and HAD to post. I have a question for all of you that read this, but first, I want to back track and give a little info about myself....
I had a pretty rough childhood. Abusive dad, mom that was just a kid herself. I basically raised my younger siblings. We moved alot, and I wasn't much on making friends or school for that matter. In highschool I was always asked, "what do you want to do with your life?" I always, always changed my mind. I wanted to do everything. I am the type of person that won't do something unless I am 100% about it. I was raised Catholic and thay religion never felt right to me. I am also the type of person that believes we all have the right to our own beliefs and should not judge others for theirs. ((I apologize, this IS going somewhere..lol)) My religious belief is that I do believe in a higher power, that we are all put on this Earth as a learning experience. I don't follow the mainstream beliefs. God loves all and forgives all. He is perfect, so why would he not forgive and love? So....One day just thinking of this concept, I see 11:11. Ok...No biggie. I see it more frequently now. But now, I have this OVERWHELMING feeling that I am here for a reason. I have a PURPOSE to be HERE at THIS time. I can't shake this feeling. I feel like me seeing this 11 11 must mean something. A clue...to help me remember what my purpose is?
I have been told to meditate. I have been told to pray. I have attempted a form of meditation that did not help. Pray? Well, I DO talk to God, but my belief is that we are created in God's image. We are ALL Gods in a way. We have all the answers inside us, we just have to find them. Soooooo....this 11 11 has been bringing up alot of new feelings. I hear gloom and doom for Dec 2012. I believe something will happen, but I am NOT afraid. Not one bit. I feel so protected. Again, that purpose comes into play. I feel protected because I have a PURPOSE in this time. Its just a drawn out cycle of this. This feeling of KNOWING yet NOT knowing. Tonight, one of my feelings that I swept under that mat came back up. Had me in tears cause I don't believe..yet I do. I feel my purpose is to help others. To heal. I have always been drawn to healthcare and a strong desire to work with Hospice patients. But this healing does not have me being a Nurse or even a Nurses Assistant. I feel my purpose is in my hands. What I thought was crazy mumbo-jumbo in the past. Laying of hands. Healing touch. Whatever you want to call it. I never before believed in it. I feel like it is my calling. And 11 11 has to do something with it.
I know I am rambeling on...maybe I just needed to vent. I feel like the people who see 11 11 are here for a purpose. That we share a not so normal background. My question for you is if you see 11 11: DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE A PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE??
I had a pretty rough childhood. Abusive dad, mom that was just a kid herself. I basically raised my younger siblings. We moved alot, and I wasn't much on making friends or school for that matter. In highschool I was always asked, "what do you want to do with your life?" I always, always changed my mind. I wanted to do everything. I am the type of person that won't do something unless I am 100% about it. I was raised Catholic and thay religion never felt right to me. I am also the type of person that believes we all have the right to our own beliefs and should not judge others for theirs. ((I apologize, this IS going somewhere..lol)) My religious belief is that I do believe in a higher power, that we are all put on this Earth as a learning experience. I don't follow the mainstream beliefs. God loves all and forgives all. He is perfect, so why would he not forgive and love? So....One day just thinking of this concept, I see 11:11. Ok...No biggie. I see it more frequently now. But now, I have this OVERWHELMING feeling that I am here for a reason. I have a PURPOSE to be HERE at THIS time. I can't shake this feeling. I feel like me seeing this 11 11 must mean something. A clue...to help me remember what my purpose is?
I have been told to meditate. I have been told to pray. I have attempted a form of meditation that did not help. Pray? Well, I DO talk to God, but my belief is that we are created in God's image. We are ALL Gods in a way. We have all the answers inside us, we just have to find them. Soooooo....this 11 11 has been bringing up alot of new feelings. I hear gloom and doom for Dec 2012. I believe something will happen, but I am NOT afraid. Not one bit. I feel so protected. Again, that purpose comes into play. I feel protected because I have a PURPOSE in this time. Its just a drawn out cycle of this. This feeling of KNOWING yet NOT knowing. Tonight, one of my feelings that I swept under that mat came back up. Had me in tears cause I don't believe..yet I do. I feel my purpose is to help others. To heal. I have always been drawn to healthcare and a strong desire to work with Hospice patients. But this healing does not have me being a Nurse or even a Nurses Assistant. I feel my purpose is in my hands. What I thought was crazy mumbo-jumbo in the past. Laying of hands. Healing touch. Whatever you want to call it. I never before believed in it. I feel like it is my calling. And 11 11 has to do something with it.
I know I am rambeling on...maybe I just needed to vent. I feel like the people who see 11 11 are here for a purpose. That we share a not so normal background. My question for you is if you see 11 11: DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE A PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE??