New, Cofused and a bit Scared...
Posted: Fri Apr 06, 2012 2:18 am
I was hesitant to start posting here because I'm really not sure what to believe or not believe....
I started seeing 11 after the hour last year...all the time. It's like I was programmed to look at my clock precisely on the 11th of the hour..any hour. Well I remember a few years ago an internet friend of mine posted about how he would see it also, he didn't know what to make of it. Well he made a thread about it on another board and linked it to a video about 2012, the mayan calendar and things like that. I really didn't pay it any mind until it started happening to me. So I reached out to him last year and asked him was it still occuring for him, told him my situation and wanted to know what else should I prepare myself for. He informed me that for HIM nothing else much was going on, except the fact that people were always coming to him for some type of help, like Strangers were flocking to him all the time and he didn't understand why...
So then I got to thinking about other things. Is it a coincidence that my first grandson was born 1-11...and I wondered how much does Astrology play into it. (I'm an aquarius). I started doing an internet search which lead me to a site talking about the Urantia book, Midwayers etc...
So the numbers stopped for a few months, and now they've started back up again...11 after the hour. I also notice that animals (squirrels) mainly just walk up to me..now normally they've been very timid animals and not real people friendly. You walk up to them..and they run away. But mine walk up on my porch...while i'm sitting there. Its' the strangest thing. Been alot of depressing moments in my life....failed jobs...failed relationships. But I have a neighbor that always tells me "Marcy, God has something big in store for you". And I don't really no what that means.
Also lately, my dreams have been terrible. For the past two weeks even though I can't recall every aspect of the dreams, when I wake up I'm upset and its always some type of confusion between me and someone else in the dreams.Every night my dreams have the same bases...conflict with SOMEONE. I don't know what to make of it. I'm not at odds with anyone right now so it can't be some type of suppressed issue I don't believe. I didn't know if the dreams were linked to anything out the ordinary or what.
I've always been the type of person that is open minded about things. Especially when it comes to the Spirit world. I know there are good and bad spirits. I always figured that if God or whoever was trying to get a message to me they'd do so in a manner that wouldn't scare me half to death because I have bad nerves due to a disorder that I have.
My question pretty much is what else can I expect, besides seeing the number patterns over and over again? Should I brace myself for anything. Should I worry about the Mayan calendar ending. Or does the mayan calendar play any part in this Spiritual Awakening? I walk around in a daze wondering what my purpose in life should be....knowing its something but simply can't quite put my finger on it. And I get frustrated because I'm 43 yrs old and is it sad that I haven't came to this conclusion at this particular point in my life.
Back in 2001 my aunt passed away and her and I were extremely close. She raised me. Well right after she passed when I'd be laying in the bed I'd have the strangest feeling that someone was in the room with me, observing me. Wanting to tell me something but never did. It happened over and over again. so I said to myself that if it happens one more time I'm gonna simply just speak out and ask "them" whatever it is you want to say to me please do so, just don't scare me." Once I had it in my mind to finally say something to "them" I never felt the presence again. I still don't know what to make of it...
I've been reading over on this site about Still Meditation...I don't really know how it works exactly but I'm just trying to find answers because the uncertainty of things has me totally confused and a bit nervous.
I started seeing 11 after the hour last year...all the time. It's like I was programmed to look at my clock precisely on the 11th of the hour..any hour. Well I remember a few years ago an internet friend of mine posted about how he would see it also, he didn't know what to make of it. Well he made a thread about it on another board and linked it to a video about 2012, the mayan calendar and things like that. I really didn't pay it any mind until it started happening to me. So I reached out to him last year and asked him was it still occuring for him, told him my situation and wanted to know what else should I prepare myself for. He informed me that for HIM nothing else much was going on, except the fact that people were always coming to him for some type of help, like Strangers were flocking to him all the time and he didn't understand why...
So then I got to thinking about other things. Is it a coincidence that my first grandson was born 1-11...and I wondered how much does Astrology play into it. (I'm an aquarius). I started doing an internet search which lead me to a site talking about the Urantia book, Midwayers etc...
So the numbers stopped for a few months, and now they've started back up again...11 after the hour. I also notice that animals (squirrels) mainly just walk up to me..now normally they've been very timid animals and not real people friendly. You walk up to them..and they run away. But mine walk up on my porch...while i'm sitting there. Its' the strangest thing. Been alot of depressing moments in my life....failed jobs...failed relationships. But I have a neighbor that always tells me "Marcy, God has something big in store for you". And I don't really no what that means.
Also lately, my dreams have been terrible. For the past two weeks even though I can't recall every aspect of the dreams, when I wake up I'm upset and its always some type of confusion between me and someone else in the dreams.Every night my dreams have the same bases...conflict with SOMEONE. I don't know what to make of it. I'm not at odds with anyone right now so it can't be some type of suppressed issue I don't believe. I didn't know if the dreams were linked to anything out the ordinary or what.
I've always been the type of person that is open minded about things. Especially when it comes to the Spirit world. I know there are good and bad spirits. I always figured that if God or whoever was trying to get a message to me they'd do so in a manner that wouldn't scare me half to death because I have bad nerves due to a disorder that I have.
My question pretty much is what else can I expect, besides seeing the number patterns over and over again? Should I brace myself for anything. Should I worry about the Mayan calendar ending. Or does the mayan calendar play any part in this Spiritual Awakening? I walk around in a daze wondering what my purpose in life should be....knowing its something but simply can't quite put my finger on it. And I get frustrated because I'm 43 yrs old and is it sad that I haven't came to this conclusion at this particular point in my life.
Back in 2001 my aunt passed away and her and I were extremely close. She raised me. Well right after she passed when I'd be laying in the bed I'd have the strangest feeling that someone was in the room with me, observing me. Wanting to tell me something but never did. It happened over and over again. so I said to myself that if it happens one more time I'm gonna simply just speak out and ask "them" whatever it is you want to say to me please do so, just don't scare me." Once I had it in my mind to finally say something to "them" I never felt the presence again. I still don't know what to make of it...
I've been reading over on this site about Still Meditation...I don't really know how it works exactly but I'm just trying to find answers because the uncertainty of things has me totally confused and a bit nervous.