I was warned
Posted: Tue Aug 24, 2010 1:28 am
October 27, 2009. I'll never forget that day, it was the worst day of my life, next to Halloween that came along 4 days later. I never started, owned, and operated a multi million dollar, nationwide company, and I was only 32.
I woke up that morning, and hit snooze on the alarm clock. It was accidental, because I was already out of bed and brushing my teeth when that alarm went haywire. I stood over it as the loudest, screechiest, strangest sound I ever heard blared from the speaker, and the screen flashed 1777. I said out loud, "yeah, cause that's not creepy or anything."
I knew that day, and I knew everyday before that, that my almost 2 years of putting my blood, sweat, and tears into that company would come to an end.
It was surreal when the Attorney General came in around 10AM to raid us, and they started screaming at me and my employees to "GET IN THE CONFERENCE ROOM NOW", and "HANG UP THOSE PHONES!" So surreal I had to ask, "Are you serious?"
We were allowed to finally go home, and when I realized they took all our funds, business and personal, I was deflated, but even more so, was my 26 year old business partner/mentor/best friend. He was so deflated that on Halloween (4 days later), he drove that big luxury car of his right into the concrete barrier.
Losing my company, and losing my best friend, was HARD. I didn't get out of bed for roughly 3 months. I cried all the time, and even went to the scene of the accident and collected a peice of his engine which I hold dear to me.
I started seeing these angel numbers about 3 years ago, and they got way stronger when that trajedy occured, and now, show up several times every single day, never missing a beat. This is why I saw these signs as warnings. Not positive messages. Because the more frequent they became, the worse off my circumstance was. Then in February 2010, my Grandma passed away. I wasn't ready for that. And I will never forgive myself for what I did to her in the hospital that night. But when I asked my Mom if Grandma would die the same way that Grandpa did, I didn't know that Grandma could hear me. And she didn't know that she was going to die. So although the bleeding in her brain from the stroke mostly paralyzed her, when I asked how her death would go, she put up a big physical fight. I try to put myself in her shoes, and wonder how scary it would be to lay in a hospital bed waiting to get better, and "over hear" that you are going to die. It makes me physically sick, and I need to forgive myself for that, because I know Grandma does.
But this is not a sad ending. Even though I miss those that passed, terribly, I no longer have to be confined to an office or cubicle for 10+ hours a day. I spent this summer traveling and hanging out with my 8 year old daughter, and I never dreamed I could experience this kind of freedom. I never thought I could have a job I loved, go back to school, find peace within, and just be.
I'm so glad to have found this message board! I realize I need to learn to interpret the messages, although mostly shown as 11:11, and understand what is being conveyed to me, rather than dismissing them as "creepy". Now that you know my story, I can't wait to get to know you! And my Midwayers!
God is love,
Gina
I woke up that morning, and hit snooze on the alarm clock. It was accidental, because I was already out of bed and brushing my teeth when that alarm went haywire. I stood over it as the loudest, screechiest, strangest sound I ever heard blared from the speaker, and the screen flashed 1777. I said out loud, "yeah, cause that's not creepy or anything."
I knew that day, and I knew everyday before that, that my almost 2 years of putting my blood, sweat, and tears into that company would come to an end.
It was surreal when the Attorney General came in around 10AM to raid us, and they started screaming at me and my employees to "GET IN THE CONFERENCE ROOM NOW", and "HANG UP THOSE PHONES!" So surreal I had to ask, "Are you serious?"
We were allowed to finally go home, and when I realized they took all our funds, business and personal, I was deflated, but even more so, was my 26 year old business partner/mentor/best friend. He was so deflated that on Halloween (4 days later), he drove that big luxury car of his right into the concrete barrier.
Losing my company, and losing my best friend, was HARD. I didn't get out of bed for roughly 3 months. I cried all the time, and even went to the scene of the accident and collected a peice of his engine which I hold dear to me.
I started seeing these angel numbers about 3 years ago, and they got way stronger when that trajedy occured, and now, show up several times every single day, never missing a beat. This is why I saw these signs as warnings. Not positive messages. Because the more frequent they became, the worse off my circumstance was. Then in February 2010, my Grandma passed away. I wasn't ready for that. And I will never forgive myself for what I did to her in the hospital that night. But when I asked my Mom if Grandma would die the same way that Grandpa did, I didn't know that Grandma could hear me. And she didn't know that she was going to die. So although the bleeding in her brain from the stroke mostly paralyzed her, when I asked how her death would go, she put up a big physical fight. I try to put myself in her shoes, and wonder how scary it would be to lay in a hospital bed waiting to get better, and "over hear" that you are going to die. It makes me physically sick, and I need to forgive myself for that, because I know Grandma does.
But this is not a sad ending. Even though I miss those that passed, terribly, I no longer have to be confined to an office or cubicle for 10+ hours a day. I spent this summer traveling and hanging out with my 8 year old daughter, and I never dreamed I could experience this kind of freedom. I never thought I could have a job I loved, go back to school, find peace within, and just be.
I'm so glad to have found this message board! I realize I need to learn to interpret the messages, although mostly shown as 11:11, and understand what is being conveyed to me, rather than dismissing them as "creepy". Now that you know my story, I can't wait to get to know you! And my Midwayers!
God is love,
Gina