Running scared...
Posted: Tue May 04, 2010 3:59 pm
I keep seeing the numbers: 111 or 1111.
Last night, I emailed Uri Gellar for some reason. It was weird. Weirder still was that he responded. He was all, "I believe that this message is positive. Go with the flow."
I've been seeing this numerical sequence since my road trip to San Diego last year. It's progressed through seeing it on my shampoo bottle, microwave, ticket stubs, addresses - I'm NOT looking for it. I'm actually avoiding it, and it's still jumping out at me.
Last night was the weirdest ever, though.
So, I write to Uri, on my first EVER decision to look into this. I don't get a response yet, but I go to bed, still thinking about the weirdness of it.
My thoughts turn themselves over and I'm thinking about something new when my mind wanders back to my digital alarm clock. "Open your eyes now and you'll be 1 minute early." Did I think that? Eyes snapped open. 12:59AM. I scowled a bit. Is that something? 1:00AM? I start thinking about the phenomenon again, and then sharply turn my thoughts away for a few minutes until my eyes are yet again open, and now it's 1:11AM.
A series of questions begins running through my mind - am I doing the right things, am I trying to be happy, can I show the world goodness and light? Reallly expostulative and reaching sorts of questions. I start feeling tingles running through me and I auto-think answers to these questions. Yes you are, yes you are... yes you can. I'm not even really sure where the questions themselves are coming from, or the answers. It's like a mental chatlog, and I'm pretty much just reading.
Anywho, I start hearing noises (house creaks) and I was attributing them to be part of this internal conversation. I went outside, where it was unseasonably warm and chillingly still. I calmed myself out of it but I didn't get to bed until 3:30.
I didn't know this was a "phenomenon" until last night. I eventually found this side, but I tried to post something on here the powers that be or whatever wouldn't let me. For whatever reason, my post didn't come through. But I'm trying again, because I really need to talk to someone about this. And I really don't want to trouble my husband with it - he's got enough to deal with right now.
Let me put some things out there:
I'm a reasonable, pragmatic person.
I rely on logic. It is what keeps me rational.
I rely on creativity. It is what inspires me.
I don't know what to believe really - spiritually I think that something is going on in the cosmos, but we underestimate the powers of it or something. We're humans, fallible, etc. Therefore I have a hard time swallowing all of this. I'm reading the info on this site, but I don't honestly get it. I think I just need to talk to another human about it.
Last night, I emailed Uri Gellar for some reason. It was weird. Weirder still was that he responded. He was all, "I believe that this message is positive. Go with the flow."
I've been seeing this numerical sequence since my road trip to San Diego last year. It's progressed through seeing it on my shampoo bottle, microwave, ticket stubs, addresses - I'm NOT looking for it. I'm actually avoiding it, and it's still jumping out at me.
Last night was the weirdest ever, though.
So, I write to Uri, on my first EVER decision to look into this. I don't get a response yet, but I go to bed, still thinking about the weirdness of it.
My thoughts turn themselves over and I'm thinking about something new when my mind wanders back to my digital alarm clock. "Open your eyes now and you'll be 1 minute early." Did I think that? Eyes snapped open. 12:59AM. I scowled a bit. Is that something? 1:00AM? I start thinking about the phenomenon again, and then sharply turn my thoughts away for a few minutes until my eyes are yet again open, and now it's 1:11AM.
A series of questions begins running through my mind - am I doing the right things, am I trying to be happy, can I show the world goodness and light? Reallly expostulative and reaching sorts of questions. I start feeling tingles running through me and I auto-think answers to these questions. Yes you are, yes you are... yes you can. I'm not even really sure where the questions themselves are coming from, or the answers. It's like a mental chatlog, and I'm pretty much just reading.
Anywho, I start hearing noises (house creaks) and I was attributing them to be part of this internal conversation. I went outside, where it was unseasonably warm and chillingly still. I calmed myself out of it but I didn't get to bed until 3:30.
I didn't know this was a "phenomenon" until last night. I eventually found this side, but I tried to post something on here the powers that be or whatever wouldn't let me. For whatever reason, my post didn't come through. But I'm trying again, because I really need to talk to someone about this. And I really don't want to trouble my husband with it - he's got enough to deal with right now.
Let me put some things out there:
I'm a reasonable, pragmatic person.
I rely on logic. It is what keeps me rational.
I rely on creativity. It is what inspires me.
I don't know what to believe really - spiritually I think that something is going on in the cosmos, but we underestimate the powers of it or something. We're humans, fallible, etc. Therefore I have a hard time swallowing all of this. I'm reading the info on this site, but I don't honestly get it. I think I just need to talk to another human about it.