What to believe?
Posted: Mon Jun 08, 2009 12:21 am
First off I don't wish to upset any of you. I am naturally critically minded and have never trusted much I read and dispise group mentalities which usually lead to people not thinking and just believing what someone else says because of similar views/belief.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Tom, I'm 21 years old and live in the UK. I started seeing 11:11 signs during my teens and they use to be very frequent, often night after night without fail I would wake to see 11:11 looking at me. First I thought it was a subconscious habit then after about a year I started realising there was more to it. I discovered sites like this a few years ago and read about them so I have a good knowledge of what everyone thinks this is all about.
I have never meditated. I have tried, but I seem to be one of these people incapable of doing it. I have too much "nervous energy" as such to sit still for too long and my thoughts tend to overpower me and I can never get into a mediative state. So there I am disadvantaged and trying to see if any of this stuff is true.
I have been reading these forums for the last few days and decided to post. I'm not really sure what my point is so this is sort of an introductive post / a skeptical post.
I haven't seen 11:11 for a long time now. I have asked them to come back but they haven't. Could it mean I am where I should be or that maybe I've sent them away. I'm not entirely sure what 11:11 means I should be doing. I've read the theories about it and I did for years, but it never made me feel happy, it just made me feel more anxious and unsure.
Anyway I hope to get a response, sorry for the post structure I know it is a little incoherent, I'm pretty tired.
Peace,
Tom
[EDIT] I will go into some more detail when I am in a better frame of mind, I do have a lot more to stay about my experience. To put it bluntly I am feeling very hopeless and lost at the moment.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Tom, I'm 21 years old and live in the UK. I started seeing 11:11 signs during my teens and they use to be very frequent, often night after night without fail I would wake to see 11:11 looking at me. First I thought it was a subconscious habit then after about a year I started realising there was more to it. I discovered sites like this a few years ago and read about them so I have a good knowledge of what everyone thinks this is all about.
I have never meditated. I have tried, but I seem to be one of these people incapable of doing it. I have too much "nervous energy" as such to sit still for too long and my thoughts tend to overpower me and I can never get into a mediative state. So there I am disadvantaged and trying to see if any of this stuff is true.
I have been reading these forums for the last few days and decided to post. I'm not really sure what my point is so this is sort of an introductive post / a skeptical post.
I haven't seen 11:11 for a long time now. I have asked them to come back but they haven't. Could it mean I am where I should be or that maybe I've sent them away. I'm not entirely sure what 11:11 means I should be doing. I've read the theories about it and I did for years, but it never made me feel happy, it just made me feel more anxious and unsure.
Anyway I hope to get a response, sorry for the post structure I know it is a little incoherent, I'm pretty tired.
Peace,
Tom
[EDIT] I will go into some more detail when I am in a better frame of mind, I do have a lot more to stay about my experience. To put it bluntly I am feeling very hopeless and lost at the moment.