not sure(raziel?>)
Posted: Fri May 08, 2009 12:11 pm
i had awaken around 4:12. i remember specifically because---
a look at my digital, it read 4:12:01- and i was thinking to myself-
hey it just turned 4:12--- meaning it was 4:11 when i had first opened my eyes.(or something of that sort)
anyways,
it took a while for me to go back to sleep.
i don't know what happened- or how i got, "there."
i put there in quotes because i feel like i was in two different places-
maybe three.
one being that imagery(dream) in my mind, guiding along with what almost felt like a nightmare-
and the second being the audible in my mind- which is where i heard someone-
i separate the two because although they were meshing- they did not feel as if they were meant to coexist
oh, and the third place would have to be likes my eyes- or the mind itself, taking in everything and trying to construct- or present itself to me.
ANYWAYS heh,
this could all be crazy-talk....
i don't really know where to start.
somewhere in the midst of my sleep and this weird dream i was having, which i can't remember much of(oh and the dream was aligning with the noise i started to hear as time moved forward)
but somewhere through all of this-
that over-whelming feeling started to creep unto my body-
this time it came a lot faster, and noise.. a connection of some sort- had been made a lot quicker.
i remember when i first used to take note of this feeling- picked it apart bit by bit because it was slow enough to feel every sense of it taking over-
i remember it used to be a thing of allowing this feeling to come-
well lately when i've been getting this feeling(which doesn't happen often)-
it is followed up by noise. usually the noise is hard to understand, and the most i get out of it is a hello--- after this i am up-
however, todays incident was a bit different-
so much so, that this is my reason for posting.
well, after tapping into that feeling- i started to hear a bunch of, "chatter."
it sounded like distorted, muffled voices in a hall- all sorts of talking going on- it reminded me of the noise i used to hear back in high school when it was time for lunch. we had a commons which would get filled- and voices would be bouncing off the walls, echoing through out the school.
during the same time this had been happening- i had been struggling in my dream. crawling around- and i could see i had been confused by the noise in the dream-
i don't know what i was doing- maybe crying out.
and then- through out the noise.... as if zoning in on my signal (heh)- i felt another odd sensation directed at me- followed by
"hello? are you ok?"
or maybe it was "is everything alright?"
it was so clear.
it was a mans voice for sure.
for some reason i responded no and openly admitted towards being afraid.
after that... i knew i was starting to lose it.... it felt like i had been trying to force myself to wake up-
but before i go i had to get a name...
i asked what's your name?
razul? something like this. it almost sounded like-
ra- zooel
i tried doing some research... i mean... i needed some kind of validation.
which is partly the reason im awake now.
i tried finding any angel name's that might match
and came across
archangel raziel.
now i'm not sure if this was him---
but this is not the first time i've been presented with the name raziel-
i've had one past encounter with such a name.
anyways-
im looking forward to your opinion and to what you might think is going on
thanks for any help- from anyone
love
a look at my digital, it read 4:12:01- and i was thinking to myself-
hey it just turned 4:12--- meaning it was 4:11 when i had first opened my eyes.(or something of that sort)
anyways,
it took a while for me to go back to sleep.
i don't know what happened- or how i got, "there."
i put there in quotes because i feel like i was in two different places-
maybe three.
one being that imagery(dream) in my mind, guiding along with what almost felt like a nightmare-
and the second being the audible in my mind- which is where i heard someone-
i separate the two because although they were meshing- they did not feel as if they were meant to coexist
oh, and the third place would have to be likes my eyes- or the mind itself, taking in everything and trying to construct- or present itself to me.
ANYWAYS heh,
this could all be crazy-talk....
i don't really know where to start.
somewhere in the midst of my sleep and this weird dream i was having, which i can't remember much of(oh and the dream was aligning with the noise i started to hear as time moved forward)
but somewhere through all of this-
that over-whelming feeling started to creep unto my body-
this time it came a lot faster, and noise.. a connection of some sort- had been made a lot quicker.
i remember when i first used to take note of this feeling- picked it apart bit by bit because it was slow enough to feel every sense of it taking over-
i remember it used to be a thing of allowing this feeling to come-
well lately when i've been getting this feeling(which doesn't happen often)-
it is followed up by noise. usually the noise is hard to understand, and the most i get out of it is a hello--- after this i am up-
however, todays incident was a bit different-
so much so, that this is my reason for posting.
well, after tapping into that feeling- i started to hear a bunch of, "chatter."
it sounded like distorted, muffled voices in a hall- all sorts of talking going on- it reminded me of the noise i used to hear back in high school when it was time for lunch. we had a commons which would get filled- and voices would be bouncing off the walls, echoing through out the school.
during the same time this had been happening- i had been struggling in my dream. crawling around- and i could see i had been confused by the noise in the dream-
i don't know what i was doing- maybe crying out.
and then- through out the noise.... as if zoning in on my signal (heh)- i felt another odd sensation directed at me- followed by
"hello? are you ok?"
or maybe it was "is everything alright?"
it was so clear.
it was a mans voice for sure.
for some reason i responded no and openly admitted towards being afraid.
after that... i knew i was starting to lose it.... it felt like i had been trying to force myself to wake up-
but before i go i had to get a name...
i asked what's your name?
razul? something like this. it almost sounded like-
ra- zooel
i tried doing some research... i mean... i needed some kind of validation.
which is partly the reason im awake now.
i tried finding any angel name's that might match
and came across
archangel raziel.
now i'm not sure if this was him---
but this is not the first time i've been presented with the name raziel-
i've had one past encounter with such a name.
anyways-
im looking forward to your opinion and to what you might think is going on
thanks for any help- from anyone
love
