Discussing Celestial Messages

[happyrain]

This one really spoke to my heart

https://board.1111angels.com/viewtopic.php?t=34214

I am growing fond of the circle of seven, and teacher Ophelius.

I replaced the words to accept more ownership for the suffering and lack of understanding.

I met a beautiful woman recently. I found her impressive.

Well, our short experience together also brought my addictive personality to light. I was heartbroken as a result of my own behavior, where the selfish me sprouted monstrous proportions. I am learning that this disorder is real, like a person addicted to a substance- the brain seeks a sense of satisfaction(like a dopamine hit) despite the reality of a situation(causing regrettable action if not addressed and understood).

I am ashamed for not behaving more in tune with the inspiration I've been blessed to receive. I learned she too is prompted by 1111. That should have been my clue to subdue the selfish desires, but even then- my sexual attraction was intense.

I understand much of the suffering comes not just from a lack of understanding but from seeking false liberation(living for the ego) instead of seeking true liberation (seeking and accepting the Fathers Will)

Now I've lost a beautiful connection and opportunity to make a wonderful friend.

I intend to endure, and hope to grow. This prayer is something I will practice, again and again. I do think despite all of this, understanding is coming to light... And though I've received illumination- I must transform.

That's all, for now.

[Sandy]

Yes, you will endure, little brother.
We all slip up in private and in the public eye...aiyiyi Sometimes I remember something uncomfortable, and right there in the middle of what I am doing, I react, wishing I could go back and do something differently.

But a wise man once said on one of these threads...

We are here to learn, and this is a very real and challenging place to Be. But I say once more... With God as our LOVING Father, nothing is impossible.

You are free. You can do it. Do not give up on your self, because your loving father has never given up on you.

Those words, you may remember, are yours, and wise words that helped me and others, I am sure. We need such a reminder once in a while...that God is a very patient and loving Father who loves us and forgives us before we can forgive ourselves. That is pure love, and you have so much of that reflected in your being. Those around you feel it and open up about all kinds of things, spiritual and life's tough reality...and that is beyond price.

I know you know all this, but I wanted to take this opportunity to tell you how proud I am of you and the way you lighten your community. That's what it is all about...open-hearted love and kindness. That is how the world will change.

xxSandy

[happyrain]

Wow, thank you sweet Sandy- my friend.

I don't remember writing that, so I am very happy you would remind me all this wisdom- yours being included.

My date went well, it was my behavior I am upset by. It was a pursuit of ego, trying to force the elements. Ayiyi indeed, I am 37 but still such a child- apparently. I am happy because I realize I was depressed even prior to meeting this woman. And a part of fixing that depression means attempting to tackle the addictive personality that runs in my family.

It's ok. Live and hopefully, learn.

I was reading paper 54 in the Urantia Book, reading how patient our Father God is. A loving parent, who endures realities we don't even understand... For a sake of honoring sovereign right(gods gift) of all beings- Free Will.

I am going to meditate today, and I will open up with the prayer of understanding.

I am in all ways grateful, even at the humiliation of this little ego of mine.

With returning strength,
Your Bro.