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Further Notes from the Receiver and Comments.
(See also “Introducing Teacher Rhoshon.” http://board.1111angels.com/viewtopic.php?p=24357#24357 )
Sharon: I do not like long posts, but I have to give you the full story, so that I might begin to make sense. For quite some time now, the name Rhoshon has entered my mind, both in and out of stillness, but I’ve not written you about this for fear that the Midwayers would say to you, “Trash it, George. She’s nuts!”
George: You’re not nuts, and I’m not nuts either according to the Midwayers, although there are times when receivers do feel that way when confronted with the utterly unlikely of Celestial information, tucked in with the totally mundane.
Sharon: If they do say I’m nuts, my faith in the mission will not be shaken.
September 19, 2005. A simple dream, but what followed is not so simple. I saw a person looking in the opening to the porch towards my back door. I at first thought that the person was male. The hair was short, very dark, and wavy. The complexion was dark, like maybe Mexican, Philippine. The mouth was broad. I think the eyes were very dark. I woke up with a snap. Suddenly wide-awake. I immediately began to think of the dream and the person, which I termed “he” in my mind. I then heard in my head, “I am female”.
I have been asking for a Celestial Teacher for a long time, and I was wondering if that was my Teacher. I must add that I had asked if I could have a Teacher that really understood one particular problem that I deal with. I had no fear of this person. Usually when I read someone’s description of their Teacher and they describe the clothing, it is different to what would be normal here, but this person looked like she was dressed in jeans and a jacket.
Around the same time as above, a day or so before, I had another dream, which bothered me terribly. Afterwards, at one point during prayer and while I was crying my eyes out about the stupid dream, I expressed how I really wanted to be a receiver during this dispensational change. I was praying and crying, and saying how it would be impossible for me to be a receiver if I had the ability to dream such an awful dream, and to have such a terrible mental bombardment such as I deal with and have dealt with for years.
Around September 17. I went into deep meditation before going to sleep. I do this often. I do not think that I had fallen asleep yet, but I really do not know because I sometimes disconnect with myself during meditation. I heard a voice talking to me, and all that I remember was the mention of “veil of tears” and receiver. Although I only recall one voice, I felt that there were two beings there. I came out of the deep meditation, wide awake, and immediately started looking for a transcript that mentioned a veil of tears, then it all came to me, crystal clear. The veil of tears was mine and the mention of receiver was referring to my request. I wish I could remember the rest.
September 21, 2005. I asked in prayer if I would be allowed to do this—to receive messages. That night I dreamt that I was reading words on what appeared to be a letter, and it said that my request had been denied. It went on to say something about receiving, but I was having trouble reading it, and I woke up but it was still there, and I tried to write down what I saw, but then it just went away. I was a bit disappointed, but not terribly, because those in charge know what is best, and it is my will that the will of God be done. It did not shake me. But now, I am really confused because of what followed on September 25.
As I wrote down our two-way conversation, I saw shadows or blurs in the air, mostly at a peripheral angle. A blurring of the air, or a momentary appearance of what reminded me of a heat wave rising from a hot summer pavement, sort of like a mirage. I was wondering if my eyes were playing up.
I got the distinct impression that she is here to help me remember. Many things have gone through my mind concerning this, but I do not want to relate them until I have learned more. There may not even be a need to relate them, and they may be personal. Something that happened to me?
George: It’s common for us to repress events, especially “unhappy” events of our early years. Rhoshon may well be one of the Mentors—a new group of Celestial Specialists of supposed extraordinary ability in quite narrow fields.
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