song lyrics

[happyrain]

i tried writing a song recently so i don't have a name for it yet...

patterns in the day shape at night
what was once light turn to fright
shadows chase you in the corners of your eyes

running in the dark now, fear- demise
what are these shapes and why?
is it love that now is lost?
the love it never was

just a lonely heart longing
until you love to be alone, shadows
shadows
learn to be alone

joyous night, adventures now peace alright
peaceful music
no dark scares you now
peaceful night running again
run run running again
keep fighting my friend

curious longing, desperate longing
lonely hearts rejoice
lonely hearts rejoice

[happyrain]

i tried writing another song after a crash and burn experience with another human being- am thinking about getting AI to turn these into songs- well, i wrote this during the come down of our separation. i'm ok, just channeling the energy and bringing things into focus.


Wish i knew how to play it cool
Instead i seem to play the fool
where i'm left to wonder what is true
Hurt myself and end up scaring you
Lonely as I've ever been
Your attention caused my head to spin
Looking in your eyes was a drug that got me high, and i had a hard time coming down

And you don't even know
That i know
That i know how it's supposed to be
and this ain't how it's supposed to be

Wondering why i couldn't be
the man i think im meant to be
the man you might have seen in me
our Friendships lost and incomplete

its A game I've never been good to play
emotions always want a say
beauty and temptation, how they lead me astray
I just hope im learnin.
the real work begins
i hope one day you can comprehend
the joy and light you helped me feel
even more the gratitude for showing me whats real
Sorry it had to be this way
If i could id kiss you everyday
Forget me now, and somehow
maybe we forgive it all
in the end

[Sandy]

Straight from your heart, Eric...
It works as good therapy for all of us who have had "crash and burn" experiences.
Hugs,
Sandy

[happyrain]

Shucks, thanks Sandy.

And it IS great therapy to write. I think I might use AI to turn this one into a spanish song. But for now, I'm taking a break from AI music makers. I enjoy getting back to the "inner voice" and allowing people the freedom to hear the voice in their own head, where interpretation becomes a little more unique.

You know, this particular crash and burn experience is starting to feel better and better. The opportunities before us are astounding. I finally feel a sense of liberation, deciding which direction I wish to go with all of these emotionally disturbing moments. I may not always have the foresight or the discipline to prevent an unfortunate experience- but being given the opportunity to choose which direction to go afterwards? It's quite exciting, and keeps the hope alive. It feels great, to strive towards the desired direction.

I feel there may be more victorious and inspiring writings down the road, as there have been before!

And all of these expressions are but an inkling of reality.

Your tuckered out but reinvigorated little brother
~Me