Dear Philip,
I will look into Kiesha Crowther, see a bit more about what she has to say -- she has me intrigued. If she is a fraud, the way people say, she is a fantastic actress -- I felt she was truly moved in that video you posted. Like she meant what she was saying, very deeply.
It seems there is no shortage of people calling someone who is sincere, a fraud.
I felt sad by what you said, about the man made reality which blinds us with the materialistic standard -- mocking you as a failure even though you've devoted such efforts to improvements. I know what you mean -- I know these standards can feel convincing. But I would have to say, you are anything but a failure. You are searching, and you have your eyes open. You yearn to find the deeper truths. I watch the people with the fancy cars, the CDs and stocks and bonds, the millions put away, the rich lifestyles, and I don't see happiness shining out from them. I grew up in an affluent community and I saw the misery underlying their 'success.' The children of these people were abusing drugs and alcohol -- it appeared to me, when I was a child, that the children felt emotionally neglected. Their parents were busy doing society things, maintaining the rich lifestyle, they didn't have time for their children. 1/3 of my high school graduating class did not graduate on time, but either 1 or 2 years later than they were supposed to, due to alcohol and drug related problems. When young children are abusing drugs that way, it makes me think their emotions are in trouble and they are running and hiding from the pain. They are trying to drift.
We see it with celebrities too, they have 'success' and they have the world's adoration and love, but they get into trouble with addictions, a spiral of divorces and scandals, and it seems their 'success' does not make them happy. What does it mean to have 'success'?
When I think of these examples, I would rather be at the bottom of the totem pole, with no money in the bank, and feel a sense of inner peace and calm . . .than to have a big bank account, and 'success,' but feel the ragged, dried-up, exhausted feeling of running in place to maintain all that 'success' and keep my power flowing.
Just from reading your messages I consider you a seeker, and a very deep and insightful person looking for meaning, and for 'real' answers, not the surface keys to success. Perhaps you learned a few things in all your hard work in the business world -- and you see that that type of 'success' is an illusion, and has nothing to do with the soul, or inner acceptance.
As far as the doomsday prophecy, I think as far as the Mayan calendar goes, we are back to people interpreting a 'zero.' They don't know what to do with an abrupt ending that doesn't have an explanation -- so they decide it means the world is going to end. They don't know what else to think. But why think that? There is no indication that they meant that, in ending the calendar on that date. What if a positive transition is about to occur, instead? Why think it must be a doomsday prophecy? This combined with the Revelations chapter in the Bible has people fearing the worst.
I believe people are capable of caring about the planet, the animals, the plants, and one another -- and trying to figure out how to clean up the mess we made. There are problems, real problems, but I see more and more people caring about that, and more activism to change things in a positive way. If more of us focus this way, we might head off the doomsday prophecies!

I think most people are more good than bad. The tyrants and the serial killers are the weirdos, not us.
I see you in the DaVinci category too -- the Renaissance man. Balanced between art and science; intuition and reason; thought and feeling; head and heart. This is the balance that keeps our world in good shape. We need more people like you!
Perception is just a product of society; I see a shift occurring where we value other things, instead of just 'success in business.' After all, the CEO Of British Petroleum is, by that old definition, a 'successful businessman,' and he is heading up a corporation that has severely damaged our world's oceans. Is that 'success'? More and more people say no, it is the worst kind of failure. But he is quite wealthy.
Thanks for all you shared Philip, please keep on!
Peace and love, Michele
