This is very long and I ask that you bear with me at first, I have few like minded people to tell or discuss things, most people just think I'm a little eccentric...alot say I'm a reincarnated hippie...lol...maybe..but I will lay this out here and you will know a little about my story.
Thanks Lilly, my docs believe I have progressive, relapsing MS and are trying to keep it from getting worse, so far with steroid infusions and the new meds I'm feeling better than I have in years. I'm beginning to think my physical ailments were more of a cause of fighting against the universe
This week has been amazing, just amazing...
Last night..I noticed on my radio in my bathroom is permanently at 11:11 on the clock something is wrong with the display and 11:11 is all that shows up. I woke up at 12:22, 1:23, 3:45 and walked in the kitchen this morning at 5:55. Drove into town yesterday and one gas station had unleaded gas and regular gas both listed on the big sign for the same price of 341.9, they aren't the same price..lol...
I feel at peace, feel like I'm heading in the right direction. I have lived and searched for a truth that i could feel comfortable with my whole life.My mother abandoned me in the hospital at birth and her sister took me in, this was back in 1968 so adoption regs weren't strict especially between families. My adoptive mom was an alcoholic and abusive most years I lived at home, she had quit drinking due to health issues the year I moved out of the house, I had a couple of great years with her where she became my best friend. Then in 1994 when i was 6 months pregnant she called me to her house because she was having trouble breathing, she was 63, i got there to her house basically in time to watch her die and not be able to do anything to help her.I was raised in a Catholic home. and attended church till I was 17 and was told by my priest that my son would be better to be born a bastard than me marry someone not Catholic...wow...
outside of my mom and dads funeral that was the last time I went to the church. Remarried a Jehovahs Witness, converted and lived that crazy life for almost 10 years, never agreed with it, lived a lie. Stayed in it and with my husband for 10 years because of my kids and not wanting to feel like a failure for another failed marriage. Eventually divorced at 10 years. Felt like an absolute failure, had no belief system, no hope, almost agnostic I would say. In a totally, unbelievable sequence of events met my twin soul who was considerably younger than me, spent a couple of months with him and have never been the same. That's what got me looking for answer of why an individual could have such an effect for such a short period of time. I would have to say he was the teacher, I the student and I wasn't ready.
So I started soul searching and haven't stopped, slowed down along the way, got my self entangled in a karmic marriage for the wrong reasons but have given it love trying to heal the karma and I know I have to do that and I believe once that is done my twin and I will be together again and somehow do this work we are destined to. I have studied astrology (that is where I started), reincarnation, pre- birth planning, numerology, tarot, twin souls and now have been lead to the 11:11 and feel like this is where I am supposed to be now, I read and read here but feel so infantile in my understanding of it.
I started my search 13 years ago and 2013 I will enter grad school for my master's degree.
I feel I get alot of messages in music, always have and music calms my soul. I have always said I can feel the music and not just hear it. And funny thing I made a playlist on my computer Monday, looked at the songs yesterday and they have the track number from the album they are from next to them, 3, 9, 4, 12...all of them..lol
My biological mother just passed away 2 weeks ago, we never talked about the reasons she gave me up, finally before she passed, she mistook my half sister (she kept the child she had after me 10 years later, a girl) for me and asked for forgiveness from her for giving me up and told her how she always loved me. I didn't hear it, but in a way I did. I had talked to her a couple months before she dies, told her I loved her when I got off the phone, I knew that would be the last time I talked to her. So alot of my issues I have had to deal with are completed, I feel comfortable with my life, I understand that these issues I have chosen to work on this incarnation and I understand how hard it was for people who loved me to play the roles of an abuser and abandoner in my life, I have no ill will towards them or my ex husband or even my current husband, I am trying to give him unconditional love until we are healed and our relationship comes to it's natural end. I have one member of my adoptive family unit left, my brother who is 64 and very ill and when he passes it will just be me and my 3 boys who are ages 24, 22 and 16.
I feel like our higher power has a sense of humor and that so many things are crystal clear but until we are ready to see them we don't. I knew meeting my twin was life changing but did not know why at first, completely clueless...the first date we went on was to see "city of angels"...he played guitar and the first song he played me was...soulshine by the allman brothers, and then iris by the googoo dolls, "our song" was running on faith by Clapton....lol..I have never had anyone tell me when I walked into a room out of sight, that" I knew you were here, I could feel you". Yes the universe has a sense of humor
I know we will be together again.
Maybe through my rambling you will get a sense of where I come from, where I am at and where I am going... or you may just think I am a little crazy
Blessings, Doni
I started seeing the 11:11 2 years ago, noted it for awhile, got sick and put it to the back of my mind and decided I was going to be too sick to continue in preparing myself for what I believe to be my life's work, counseling. This week my doctors put me on new medicine to end the fatigue, I have again made a vow to go into my calling and the 11:11came to me Tuesday night, 4:44 this morning I was awakened. In the last 3 days so many things have transpired, my advisor at school recalculated my hours and I will finish my bachelors degree December 2 0 1 2, right in time to start Graduate school for my Masters Degree January 2013, graduate school only starts in January. Everytime I get a sign I have been acknowledging it and have acknowledged that I am ready to work with the universe. I started spiritually searching for meaning 13 years ago. I am looking forward to reading more from the board. Right now, I am just kind of amazed 
Your story is both heart breaking and inspiring. I am so glad you have joined this 11:11 family, Doni and I thank you for sharing your journey with us.
.... maybe that is where all that chocolate in my cart (trolley)is coming from! 
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Well, at least I didn't say, "the devil made me do it!" 
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