Intro, dreaming, numbers

[theunim]

Hello everyone! I joined today but it has been months since my computer had the forum bookmarked. Today I felt compelled to look through the forum and decided to join. I found the link through a Facebook page that also has people discussing the 11:11 phenomenon. I am enjoying reading some of the other members' experiences and I hope to participate right alongside with all of you in this forum.

I've been experiencing a number of things through the past few years, starting mostly with 11:11, around early 2008 or so. In that year, I felt like I woke up feeling like a different person and had suddenly different feelings for someone that I loved, as well as finding someone else to be with (who is now my husband). I also felt like I was feeling differently about the world and the society that I lived in, but the differences were not as intense as that of my feelings in my personal life.

I thought seeing 11:11 was more of a numerology thing and for a while, I only abided by what some numerology sites were saying. I would often see the numbers on clocks, watches, or cell phones, as it has been for many people, but then I'd start seeing and hearing of them randomly in other places, like on paper or when I was around children that liked to mention the times we'd see 1:11 or 11:11 so that they would know to make a wish. I would like to mention that during high school, I already started to become curious about things like life after death and astral projection. Perhaps, not the best, but a number of my family members have always had a belief that the dead can contact us and that within our dreams, we have seen our dead relatives and spoken with them. Also, in high school, my school id was 2223, which I thought was a wild number since when you count the number of letters in my name (this is before I got married), I had 9, 6, 6, 6 for each part of it, and to me, multiplying each part of my school id by 3 would yield the number combination of my name backwards. Anyway, I digress. This is probably an entirely different topic that we can talk about in the near future, if any one is interested.

Getting back to 2008: also around early 2008, I started to have some vivid dreams with people I either knew or recognized, but for some of those people I could not name or remember where I saw them. These dreams are not consistent but for years, in general, I have had very strange dreams and sometimes I turn them into stories if I felt very strongly about them.

One dream in early 2008 that stood out had my ex-boyfriend's grandmother in it, who had passed away in December 2007 around Christmas, and my grandmother, who passed away in January 2008 three days before my birthday then. This dream stands out even more than other ones because the same night, my ex-boyfriend's mother and youngest sibling, his sister, also dreamed of their family member. We all dreamed about her in different contexts and with different appearances, though the most common conception we had was that she appeared to be young and healthy again. My apologies ahead of time about this recounting of the dream, I don't remember writing it down to record but I am writing of this dream because I chose to remember a few things about it and to this day, I can still remember particular bits as a result.

My dream of her took place in a combination of places: their house in the living room, dining room, and kitchen, and a hall where there were many meeting. I saw that she was alive again and cooking and we had a chat, which was brought over to the living room. In the living room, there was good light and I was face to face with her, better than where we were in the kitchen and the dining room. I saw that she, indeed, was younger and healthier - strong and filled out again in figure. She was wearing pink. She sounded the same But, most of all, what struck me odd about her was her eyes- they were completely black. I am very unsure as to how I felt about her while in the dream, but in any case, while we spoke, the living room changed and behind me, what should have been a wall was melting away and through the house, it appeared that relatives were flying by, almost like how you might think about the way the characters flew in the story of Peter Pan. I recognized a cousin of mine, but he is around my age and still alive, and appeared to be so, still.

I don't remember how we got to the hall- I think we probably just appeared there. It looked like a lecture hall that you might find in a college. There were people gathering around. I was still accompanied (or was I accompanying?) by my ex-boyfriend's grandmother when my own grandmother appeared with my mother there beside her. I can't remember if she was alive or if she passed away already by the time this dream happened, but I know I was affected by when the dream had come about concerning her death. All four of us stand together and my grandmother introduces my mother while I am introduced by my ex-boyfriend's grandmother. Then I woke up.

Anyway, it is now 2011 and though I don't get to see 11:11 as frequently as before, I think it is okay since I feel that, for now, I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I am supposed to be doing. For that I am glad. I hope to get to know you all better! Much love to you.

[LurkerAbyss]

Welcome to the board

I've never had a dream about anyone who had passed away in real life (I've never had anyone pass away in real life), but I imagine it is a powerful dream object, especially since you remember that dream so well in particular. I'm curious, and I'm also guessing, were you close to your ex-boyfriend's grandmother or have special feelings about her at all?

I hope we will get to know you too. I am glad that you have decided to finally surface and become an active part of the message board! And I have to hand it to you because I've had this board bookmarked since back in 2005 and only last year did I start posting! Always feel free to share.

Love
Lucky

[theunim]

Welcome to the board

I've never had a dream about anyone who had passed away in real life (I've never had anyone pass away in real life), but I imagine it is a powerful dream object, especially since you remember that dream so well in particular. I'm curious, and I'm also guessing, were you close to your ex-boyfriend's grandmother or have special feelings about her at all?

I hope we will get to know you too. I am glad that you have decided to finally surface and become an active part of the message board! And I have to hand it to you because I've had this board bookmarked since back in 2005 and only last year did I start posting! Always feel free to share.

Love
Lucky

Thanks for your welcome and for reading my post!

To answer your question, my ex-boyfriend's grandmother was practically my main mother figure during 2007. For almost the entire year then my parents and I were at odds, especially my mother, and it resulted in a very long literally silent-period between us three. For advice and comfort, and since I spent so much time there anyway, I was turning for motherly advice from my ex-boyfriend's grandmother. That year, something happened to her health-wise, so that the same symptoms that were indicative of pancreatic cancer (which she was already treated for the previous year) kept coming back. As a result, she kept going in and out of the hospital. I went with her to a number of appointments and helped out my ex-boyfriend's family during that period. In December, during her last couple of days, I chose to stay with her an entire night at the hospital, staying awake until the morning when the family came back again for the day. That night itself was interesting because she kept taking off her oxygen mask and going in and out of sleep, seeing things that I wasn't able to see. It happened three times. One of the visions she had was of something on fire ahead of her, and I think a couple of the other ones had to do with people. I'm not too sure on this. I was told that sometimes, using an oxygen mask will cause hallucinations. I think that that particular night was the last one where she was conscious, because the next night she went unconscious and didn't wake up again.

I have to say that she is the first human I witnessed who started to let go of life. It seems like the entire year when she kept going in and out of hospital care, she was slowly going away and didn't mind dying, speaking about it from time to time with her. Of course, her entire family, as I think would normally happen with most people and their loved ones, was praying for her to get better and live a healthy life again; but to me, as much as I came to love her and all, I wanted her to be comfortable and just let go, away from the pain, when she wanted.

[LurkerAbyss]

That's a touching background story indeed, and I think it is beautiful how you were able to accept her passing on. Based on experiences of others and personal reflection and contemplation, I truly believe that it makes it easier not only for us but for the one passing into the afterlife to embrace death as much as possible and look at it as a "moving on" process as opposed to a negative.. even in tragic circumstances, the negative emotions people attach to death are just that, negative, and grieving or missing a loved one is natural when they are suddenly removed from your lives but if we are open to a greater understanding of the soul, we can learn to embrace the moment in which one is no longer confined to the limits and difficulties of this Earth life.

Love
Lucky

[Sandy]

Hello Theunim,

I loved your lovely introduction and it is a pleasure to welcome you to the message board. What a great dream to remember and hold close to you. I haven't had a dream yet involving my passed on relatives but I have had odd dreams where I have been sitting in a lecture hall and have had board members be there too as well as other people that I do not recognize. I can never remember the details though... things like what we were listening to or receiving. At least not with most of them.

I found it interesting too that you woke up one morning feeling very different about things? Did this deal directly with your ex boyfriend of the time or did it carry over in how you looked at all things around you..the way you looked at the world as well? I have heard similar stories from people and in some cases I wondered if they experienced a kind of enlightening experience. ..here everything seems clearer brighter... better understood.

Anyway, It is good to meet you! I look forward to getting to know you.
Love,
Sandy

[LurkerAbyss]

That reminds me, I think I know very well that feeling of literally just waking up one day and feeling very different about things.

Funny thing. I posted about how I had never had a dream of a passed on loved one before. Actually, I said it was because I've never had someone dear pass on in real life but I guess I was speaking strictly in terms of humans.. Well, last night I had a dream where my family and I saw our beloved dog who was not doing so well after 14 years and we had her put down last spring out of mercy.. that was the first time I had a dream about her since then, and it was so beautiful to actually see her and touch her and in the dream I even said to my family "Comet is here! Come spend time with her before she disappears!". When I woke up, I thought immediately of this thread and how I said I had never had a dream of a loved one who had passed on.

Love
Lucky

[theunim]

Hello Theunim,

I loved your lovely introduction and it is a pleasure to welcome you to the message board. What a great dream to remember and hold close to you. I haven't had a dream yet involving my passed on relatives but I have had odd dreams where I have been sitting in a lecture hall and have had board members be there too as well as other people that I do not recognize. I can never remember the details though... things like what we were listening to or receiving. At least not with most of them.

I found it interesting too that you woke up one morning feeling very different about things? Did this deal directly with your ex boyfriend of the time or did it carry over in how you looked at all things around you..the way you looked at the world as well? I have heard similar stories from people and in some cases I wondered if they experienced a kind of enlightening experience. ..here everything seems clearer brighter... better understood.

Anyway, It is good to meet you! I look forward to getting to know you.
Love,
Sandy

Sandy, thank you for the welcome!

I think it was a good dream, except for the eyes. A close friend mentioned that perhaps I saw her like this because of how she really might look after death, instead of just taking note that she looks young and healthy again. I still wonder why her eyes were like that, though.

I did read some other topics on the forum where a hall was mentioned and it tickled me a little bit to think that maybe where I met up with my grandmother and mother while with my ex's grandmother was the same kind of place.

There was a time in high school where I had woken up and felt that something big was about to happen to my life and it did that day, with a boyfriend breaking up with me then. So, when I woke up again with a different feeling around that time in '08, I thought it was mainly about my relationship with this ex-boyfriend. But my romantic relationship was only one of many things that year that I was going through that changed quite a bit, so I think the feeling was mainly for the relationship and was to carry over for everything else in my life. Not sure if it's enlightenment, but according to my past zen buddhism professor, people experience enlightenment multiple times and it could be very small things in the first place!

[theunim]

That reminds me, I think I know very well that feeling of literally just waking up one day and feeling very different about things.

Funny thing. I posted about how I had never had a dream of a passed on loved one before. Actually, I said it was because I've never had someone dear pass on in real life but I guess I was speaking strictly in terms of humans.. Well, last night I had a dream where my family and I saw our beloved dog who was not doing so well after 14 years and we had her put down last spring out of mercy.. that was the first time I had a dream about her since then, and it was so beautiful to actually see her and touch her and in the dream I even said to my family "Comet is here! Come spend time with her before she disappears!". When I woke up, I thought immediately of this thread and how I said I had never had a dream of a loved one who had passed on.

Love
Lucky

Lucky,

I think it's very interesting you had dreamt of your beloved pet. Pets certainly do count, in my opinion, as loved ones in our lives.

Sometimes I think that, because our brains are super busy all throughout any time of the day, that some days we just wake up like that because our brains finally sorted something out for us while we slept. Who knows for sure, though?

[Sandy]

Hi Lucky,
I don't think it was coincedence that you had this dream about Comet after your remark on this thread yesterday. What a lovely dream..a blessing really. Our animal friends are family in a very real sense.

Love,
Sandy