Hello my dear friends,,,
I'm so sorry

I haven't really been in touch.....yes,,,I'm here,,,I've been lurking,,,but just didn't have it in me to answer...or to ask for help.
don't know if I told you guys this anywhere,,,but I actually gave myself 'whiplash' by jumping out to a floatie on the lake....

it's funny now !
I seem to remember telling someone that I tried to let out the 'inner child', but the ole lady forgot the 'child' wasn't in the physical....
I spent alot of time....just laying down.....heat bags.....pain pills....
couldn't even do reiki for myself.....just did alot of talking to our parents, because I had been such an idiot....
went through some depression with hubby being away and NOT looking forward to another winter alone and trying to keep my feelins hidden so he wouldn't worry.....
only he 'caught me',,,,,
one weekend we were down at the lake, cutting down those alder trees

the next morning I couldn't walk (for about an hr),,,then only with a cane

spent the next 3 days as a couch potatoe
then I went through a couple of weeks of just 'laying' there, sooo tired it was ridiculous,,,,so I just layed there....
a friend came out to see me and stayed over with me,,,and took care of me.....I thought she was coming over to help her with a problem (at least I could still talk),,,,and talk we did....then as I got better I realized that she came out to take care of me.....what a blessing.....and what a sweet heart she is.

...I'm very very grateful....
I'd pop onto this thread a couple of times,,,,and there seemed to be another 'lull',,,, then today I read the last couple of pages and WOW, but all the news just picked me right up.....and I've been feeling quite abit stronger the past couple of days....
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU....sweet Debs, Lilly, Sandy and everyone....
and hello to Sammy (I must have been away too long),,,,and to all the new (to me) secret coffee shop visitors......argh,,,I missed out on those cookies..serves me right!!!!
and HI STAR!!!,,,,so glad to hear you're on your feet again too...
I have answered a few threads,,,,but honestly for the most part, it seemed like my heart was missing,,,,so I figured it best to say nothing,,,,just send prayers....
yet, you know,,,even with all the 'down' time and negativity that's really been hot and heavy lately.....there's also been alot of positive stuff going on too...
Hubs came home,,,,and quit the big 'corporate' job.....it was just 'done',
he made the decision,,,,and I backed him on it....
Time for us to move forward with Tranquility Base,,,,together,,,,
Time to smell some roses (like the one(pic) I sent you Gypsie)
and especially, time for him to start to enjoy life,,, not live in stress
It was sooooo good to hear you guys finally had a meet up....George, Sandy, Gypsie and Lilly....
I can imagine how wonderful it was having talked with each of you on the phone,,,,I can imagine,,,,since I know how wonderful it was to have Laura come up here and stay a couple of weeks....now they want to come up together but now have to get official passports,,,,honest to Pete....next thing you know we'll need passports just to go into another province or state....
It's been a crazy summer,,,,,up down, up down,,,,what happened to sideways???? or smooth sailing????
Guess it's just the 'wild ride' we're on....
well, guys,,,,my hands are stiffening up and don't want to type anymore,
so I'll stop for now,,,and send my love to everyone
I'm sorry if I didn't answer emails or pm's. (I think I missed a few)...
I just kind of 'wasn't here'.....but I am now....just have to limit this typing thing or my neck hurts....and hands go numb....you should see the corrections I have to make....
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