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FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 1:59 pm

Hello everyone, I dont know anyone here, I am new, and of course, my reason for being here are 11:11 messages, and other similar numbers coming up.. I've started being prompted roughly in November 2006, while a year before I had a 'strange' meditation experience where i saw myself as being someone completely different to what I am in physical/earth life. I woke up and didnt even know it, my wake up was quite traumatic because my soulmate/or possibly even twin flame arrived on the scene, and there were many lessons of love, pain, love, pain, love, pain, separation, union.. too many things to mention. and since then I've had 10:10, 11:!11, 10:01, all sorts of number sequences.
My wake up happened on 10.11.2006, and I wasnt even aware, then a year later I started getting more of those dates, clock messages and they were too insisitent to ignore.
I just dont know what to do. I am sorry, I will read through your posts eventually, but in short, what I do need to do right now, or when these messages appear?
And since my wake up, or rather seeing myself what I am.. (the title says it all)..I have been growing spiritually at amazing rates, on my own pretty much with some help.. but no one close by in physical sense..Its been a tough lonely road, with much confusion..and I wondered if I am mad many times,
Anyway, I hope to get to know you all soon.. and that I may finally get some answers as what I need to do, I am a little frigthened of it all at times..if Im honest..
All the very best

Post by **nasra1996** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 3:29 pm

Welcome FLG....

If you take a read through this link below, it is a bit like an 11 starterpack...

http://board.1111angels.com/viewforum.php?f=9

Take care,

Love Sarah

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 3:50 pm

Thank you for the welcome Sarah, and the link

Hopefully I will come across what I need eventually.

I must admit, I have read things on 11:11 numbers, and other numbers I have been receiving, also in strange sequences, some sites said that it is a reunion with twin flame and others that it is a call to do something else, sometimes they do not come for days, and then they would start and not leave me alone until I give in and start searching for answers again. Today, 1111 made me cry, kind of like a cry of remembering and re-joining with something/someone, cry as in 'where have you been all this time'

overwhelming again..

When the FLG was born, she was born in November on the 10.11 date. She resides inside, and is very beautiful, strong, amazing, with so much love to give. Overwhelmingly loving person, I would like to share that when I came out of that trance/vision, I felt so amazing, blissfull, my artistic side returned, I wanted to dance like crazy and share it with someone, but there ws no one, my either soul/or twin flame was not around.. I wanted to share it so badly. Luckily I had some people come into my life who understood, so I wasnt crazy, as I thought..

))) And Im happy I found this website.

)

Much love and light to you too
FLG

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 3:54 pm

Its just crossed my mind, maybe it is yourselves that I had to re-connect, after all the message today brought me here..

justylonging1111 · Post by **justylonging1111** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 4:44 pm

Hello Flg!

Welcome, to this most beautiful board! You will find such kindred spirits here, and we all love to share and Love to Love! I look forward to learning more of your experiences!

God Bless!

Love Tannis

Post by **Geoff** » Mon Feb 02, 2009 11:12 pm

Dear FLG,

Welcome to our site.

love,
Geoff.

~*Star_Struck*~ · Post by **~*Star_Struck*~** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 12:24 am

Welcome!

Love
Star

Norah · Post by **Norah** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 1:39 am

Hello, and welcome! I sympathize with the "am I going mad?" and also with the "learning seemingly all on your own." And a good number of the people posting here discovered, with complete surprise, after years of prompts, different experiences and so on. Stick around, it's all so good here, fellow Eleveners are the kindest kind of folks (and surely there's good reason for that!).

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 8:33 am

Good morning nice people, thank you for more welcome notes, and sympathising.

It means so much.
It is such a relief to know that you are not the only one out there, and this is not a figment of my imagination, its real,

Once I read a book on how to call upon your angels, I didnt think it would work as such.. it seemed to weird to be true, but I thought I'd give it a go. I meditated and asked for my angels name, I wrote it down.. and forgot about it.. I searched on the Internet etc, but could not find anything. Then I came across a web site much later, and there she was. Celeste

Among many other angels and guardians that look after us all.
For me it was amazing, at the time, because I had never come across that name in my living life.. I started believing, then lots of other things started to follow, and even know I am still in a bit of a disbelief

Reason being is because I never had anyone in my life who believed in same things, or had same experiences..
But everything else, followed naturally from there.

FLG doesnt come out very often, because she is very intense, the love and fire and bliss, and all else that comes out with it, I have to hide her, because people that I know would think Im mad, but I she is there, she supports me, gives me strength, and makes me believe in myself, my 'powers of love'..

She truly is amazing, it is a shame she has to hide..I have learned to balance her, so to speak

so not to scare anyone..
Dear friends, I just want to share with you that so many tears were spilt before I became truly strong..so much pain.
But my wake up happened thanks through a human angel that came into my life..he is a truly amazing person, I felt bliss in his hug, true bliss, like I was at home.. Even with my parents and any other lovers, boyfriends, I did not feel this..I cannot be sure if he is just a friend soul mate, or a twin flame. But, for the first time, I felt like I can be truly me infront of someone..
I hate to admit that I didnt appreciate it at the time, I didnt know why I felt so much love, yet so much pain at the same time, for this person.
You see, he has a problem.. or had a problem, I do not know if he still does, I prayed..drugs, which were destroying his soul, and I felt it, I felt his pain, I felt his love, all of it..
I had a longing, just to be with him, at any cost, I could not help myself, and I didnt know what was happening to me..the whole experience was very very crazy..I had never felt like this. With him, I learned the true meaning of unconditional love, when your ego is not important anymore, when your concern just becomes for that person, it was thoroughly mad.
He never judged me, he never criticised, he just watched me unfold..so to speak..
The story does not have a happy ending.. on earth plane. I am not sure. I overcame my own needs, desires, longing, just wishing that he is happy. He loves me, I love him, yet on earth, we cannot be together.. I am not sure..
Anywya, I am sorry if I am blabbering on..
He was the one that asked me if I believed in angels.. he phoned me once.. I knew we had something different, that is not experienced on a daily bases in anyone's life, but I thought he might think I was crazy if I say it

, but he said, what we have is unique, isnt it? But I couldnt respond.. I was numb.. in disbelief.. I was hurting a lot still..the hurt never quite went away.. but I can deal with it now..
And I know he is in my heart, with me all the time, that is all that matters now.. and that it is all towards our most good in the end.. regardless of the illussion of earth life

Apologies for such a long note, I needed to share it..
Thank you for reading it.. and for welcome again.
I must go and work now, even though I'd love to write more..
Lots of love and light to you all
FLG

Post by **Sandy** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 9:34 am

Dear FLG,
What a touching and beautiful post. I wish I could reach through the computer and give you a sisterly hug.

It sounds as if you have learned so much..most importantly about love and caring. I believe that if we can learn to love unconditionally, then everything along our spiritual path will fall into place.
Please don't be frightened. As you read more here and share experiences with others you will get to know the Midwayers...amazing beings sort of like angels who are behind the 11:11 number prompt. They want to get you attention..communicate with you, and work with you to help uplift this world. It is all good.

It is nice to meet you...welcome FLG.
Love,
Sandy

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 9:56 am

Dear Sandy,

Thank you so much, consider it like I have truly received it

And I had a funny feeling go through my whole body just now when you said about the hug,

thank you..

Like my teacher, yes I have an amazing teacher guide who is also in Australia, who says that I agreed to all this anyway, I chose to learn through pain and loss.. to let go.. to love..
From the day I was born, life has been full of trauma..

trauma from which I have learned, and at the time, you dont think you will survive, you hurt so much, you feel like you dont belong in this world, I assume there are many people like that.. I understand it now.

I lived in poverty, with lots of anger, frustration, dis-harmony in my childhood.. then I had a big operation, I had to go to school with a big cast and be the centre of attention for all the wrong reasons, I hated myself at the time, I asked myself why..
Then a war broke out in my country.. which myself and my family lived through..I didnt know if my father was alive or not, and had to grow up so quickly at the age of 14/15.. then moving to another country.. fighting for a good future..

There has been too much to write here

(I will be 33 this year).
And then just when I thought things were getting settled, my parents went back to the country of my origin, I lost my job, I was in terrible pain and asked myself why.. I felt my soul was being torn apart, and I didnt know what to do about it..
Then 'he' came along, and suddenly all the pain and trauma I ever experienced disappeared as if by magic... and I thought, this is it, this is what I have been waiting for ... but it wasnt meant to be an easy ride, to say the least.. That thing with my soul-mate was probably the most trying experience of my life, I can tell you.

even the war, all my challenges in life, nothing compared to this my dear friends, and those of you who have met your soulmates and twin flames, you know how intense the whole thing is. You have no more control.. Its something higher, something above you..
I must admit, I am smuggly proud of what I have learned from it all. Now I can offer same sympathy and understanding to people in my life, I kind of quietly guide them, send them positive energy, and for them to believe that all willbe ok in the end.
But I do admit, I am a little alone with this..
Dear Sandy, thank you for encouraging words. I have had contact with many of my guides, but still..sometimes I fall...

And may I add, I am not here just to seek your support, I would like to offer my help if it is required, I believe my experiences can help..of course, if it is needed.
PS. Now i have come back to my origins, where there has been so much hurt and pain, and although I have freedom to be anywhere I like in the World, this would not be my top place to chose tolive, but I kind of felt I had to come here. I know there is a reason, so Im trying to be patient, even in the face of many things that make me unhappy

Just like I was with my human angel.

Lots of love Sandy, and everyone else

Post by **nasra1996** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 12:38 pm

FLG, glad you came here, i have enjoyed reading your posts, i can understand what you are saying about the feelings of pain for a loved one transcends any other pain, been there...

If you dont mind me asking, which country are you from that suffered war....?

Take care,

Love Sarah

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 12:43 pm

I do not mind, it was what ws then called Yugoslavia, now separated into many little countries. I am from Croatia, but am of mixed nationalities. And I do not consider myself any of those. I just consider myself a very lucky human. So I am here now again, overcoming many fears, and I hope that somehow I can make my friends realize that all that matters in the end is that we are human, not different by the label we give ourselves.., and that wars must stop and we all must learn love, if we are to have a better tomorrow for our children

I hope

I know that despite my personal choices, Im here for a reason, and so Im a little afraid of not being able strong enough to fullfill the mission ascended masters require me to do.. although my teacher said that I am helping raise the vibration, and slowly individuals have started to come forward to seek my help.. so I hope I do not fail..

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 12:48 pm

And also Nasra, it was your country that provided me security that me and my family needed, but in the end it wasnt true home. I do consider UK my second home, and have many friends and my brother is still there, he has a British girlfriend, they have a kid

I travel back often, but I feel my people need me.. I hope that I can pass on what I have learned,
Although my lessons were tough, they made me strong too, and that could be the reason why.
I travel back to UK often, and am grateful for the opportunities I had, i lived there 15 years.

Lots of love

Post by **nasra1996** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 12:56 pm

Hi FLG, Croatia is a thriving holiday destination now isn't it... and a beautiful country....

I remember we had lots of refugees from Yugoslavia, from all sides stay in my flats that i was living in at the time, some were out of concentration camps, my old friend who was a doctor went out there to give medicines to the bosnians, he came back and had a mental breakdown for a long time. They were very beautiful people.

Love Sarah

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 1:01 pm

Im sorry to hear about your friend, how is he now?
It is tough.. and many have probably suffered a lot worse than myself,
Yes, Croatia is beautiful, shame about so many souls not realizing that they have power to change things, with Love

But, no one is to blame but us, our ancestors did it and it has been carried on for centuries, but I believe with new energies and light beings coming, all this will change

If I can put love into at least a few souls in my life time, then I will be happy, although my teacher say that my mission is bigger, I am not sure I am up to it.. to be honest..

AiR1k · Post by **AiR1k** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 2:27 pm

'elloz

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 2:38 pm

hi

why are you laughing?

AiR1k · Post by **AiR1k** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 4:44 pm

GRR the accursed faces deceive me yet again! ARGHHHH

heh, just kidding.
i wasn't trying to give off the impression of laughter- more so
a BIG SMILE, a BIG HELLO, a friendly welcome.

but now that we are on the subject of smiley faces...
it's true- i think we all like to have fun with them every now and then... but where does everyone get all the other faces. i hit view more and still don't see some of the emoticons that many use here.
trickery is afoot!
somewhere in this forum, deep within the archives- is a plethora of rare emoticons- true gold, a buried treasure in the midst.

but yes sorry to take up your thread with an irrelevant question(only if that offends you of course)
if not then yay for free space.

and welcome.

blue nova · Post by **blue nova** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 5:26 pm

hi FLG welcome to the 11:11 angels site

eric wrote:

somewhere in this forum, deep within the archives- is a plethora of rare emoticons- true gold, a buried treasure in the midst.

http://www.augk18.dsl.pipex.com/index.htm

(((Hugs)))
anne

Post by **peacockplume** » Tue Feb 03, 2009 6:46 pm

Welcome FLG and Norah,,,

I hope you both enjoy the friendship offered and held by all of the mb...

FLG,,,,I think you have found 'your inner self',,,,and the more you let 'her' out,,,,the more you will become a complete person....

try not to worry about whether or not you have a big job to do,,,or if you'll be able to do it or not....

you are definitely being guided,,,,and the opportunities for your expansion will keep coming forward....

you are,,,a wonderful lightworker,,,,just know that and trust in our Divine Creator,,,,for you will surely be led to what you need to do...all in the right time....

love and blessings
pp
xoxoxo

lilly · Post by **lilly** » Wed Feb 04, 2009 9:30 am

Hi FLG,
Welcome to our site....

Love lilly xox

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Wed Feb 04, 2009 9:50 am

Thank you Lilly, Peacockplume, Blue Nova and AiR1k for your welcomes, much appreciated :0

Im easy going (at least I'd like to think) so not offended by your smiley's, far from it, you ooze with a funny energy, so thats all good.

Peacock, thank you for your nice words. I do admit being terribly confused at times with it all. I must admit, that although I know I dont belong to standard human league, I wish sometimes that I was, and yes I know that's a little selfish, I ask myself why sometimes, although I know reasons deep inside, at times it is all too much for me.. but I have to take notice..

Last night I had a bit of an honest talk (by myself, to myself or whoever was around, i felt some strange energy when I got out of a bath).. just asking why all this is happening like it, why am I confused with everything that is going on, and it felt nice to get it off my chest, even if it was just into thin air, so to speak..I found that talking to myself is the best therapy.. lol.

Nice to be getting to know you all..
Love and light

FireLoveGoddess · Post by **FireLoveGoddess** » Wed Feb 04, 2009 10:02 am

Btw, I'm ever so emotional today, I feel like crying.. for no apparent reason whatsoever.. (no it is not a woman thing), just overwhelm.. of some sort.. often I have overwhelming feelings.. and I try to shut them out, they scare me sometimes.... but they resurface eventually, and then they are ten times worse..

Good ones too..

I miss 'him' terribly, I wish I didnt, and I tell myself, I am lucky to have met him, and I have never known anything like this. I am not living in 'clouds' just in case you may think that,
But how does one ever stop thinking or letting go of the only person who knew how to wipe your tears, who knew exactly how to love you, who stirred your soul so deep..so deep that no human word can describe it..
How does one stop missing that and let go and try to live a 'normal' life again?
How does one ever let go and stop missing the only person that you felt so comfortable with, so blissful with, so at home with, with a soul that understood you perfectly, and who really looked inside you, not just the surface, not just your looks or what you have to offer..I ask myself this often..
I feel like I am just existing..well after that I do. I have hideous conversations with myself, I tell myself, if it was meant to be, it would have been, I try to find reasons not to love, in hope that it may make it easier, but it all goes back to love, and to that basic need to love and to be loved.
It is ridicilous, I am not some teenager just infatuated, I am a grown woman (supposedly)...

...who knows.. I certainly dont..
And I saw his soul too, I loved it so much. I saw beyond the mask too, beyond problems, and sometimes harsh words, from both sides, mine and his too, I saw beyond drugs, it was just an internal feeling.. that never lies...that's all I can say..

Post by **nasra1996** » Wed Feb 04, 2009 10:45 am

FLG, what is stopping you from going to him.....

I know how you feel....

Love Sarah