the burn blanket
Posted: Fri Dec 05, 2008 12:04 pm
hey everyone, heres another interesting one.
4 or 5 years ago i was given a big thick fleece wolf blanket by my girlfriend. the first words out of her mouth were "dont go burning holes in it with your cigarettes' not long after the first burn hole appeared. i can now count almost twenty holes in this blanket, and i never went up in flames. im sure that its composition might help in that regard, but i refuse to agree that that is the only reason nothing happened.
5 years later, im no longer with her but i still have the blanket and it still hasnt let me go up in flames every time i fall asleep with a cigarette in my hand. which is due in fact to a medicine i am taking. sometimes i wake up in the morning light one and fall back asleep with it in my hand.
now that i think about it, maybe i will widen this topic a little bit. i used to be addicted to narcotics, at one part of my life i was in a nosedive. ive overdosed on alot of drugs, not only narcotics, and nothing major has ever happened to me.
i am also prone to bad driving. ive been in a lot of scary situations that i have walked away from unharmed that shouldnt have been.
it trully is a miracle that i am still alive. after the last episode when i woke up in the morning and my roomate told me what i had done while wacked out the night before i decided to put a halt on it. due to the fact that if the last one didnt kill me, none of them would. i forced myself, with only a few slipups off of narcotics.
is it possible that i am capable of something trully great? and thats why they have gone through all the fus of saving my stringy butt from myself?
after writing that, it seems silly to have even asked those questions at all. i know already but im still having a hard time admitting it to myself.
id love to hear your input.
4 or 5 years ago i was given a big thick fleece wolf blanket by my girlfriend. the first words out of her mouth were "dont go burning holes in it with your cigarettes' not long after the first burn hole appeared. i can now count almost twenty holes in this blanket, and i never went up in flames. im sure that its composition might help in that regard, but i refuse to agree that that is the only reason nothing happened.
5 years later, im no longer with her but i still have the blanket and it still hasnt let me go up in flames every time i fall asleep with a cigarette in my hand. which is due in fact to a medicine i am taking. sometimes i wake up in the morning light one and fall back asleep with it in my hand.
now that i think about it, maybe i will widen this topic a little bit. i used to be addicted to narcotics, at one part of my life i was in a nosedive. ive overdosed on alot of drugs, not only narcotics, and nothing major has ever happened to me.
i am also prone to bad driving. ive been in a lot of scary situations that i have walked away from unharmed that shouldnt have been.
it trully is a miracle that i am still alive. after the last episode when i woke up in the morning and my roomate told me what i had done while wacked out the night before i decided to put a halt on it. due to the fact that if the last one didnt kill me, none of them would. i forced myself, with only a few slipups off of narcotics.
is it possible that i am capable of something trully great? and thats why they have gone through all the fus of saving my stringy butt from myself?
after writing that, it seems silly to have even asked those questions at all. i know already but im still having a hard time admitting it to myself.
id love to hear your input.