Thank you Sandy and Kim.
Kim,
I hadn't replied fast enough with my initial response and lost the information.
To try and answer your question, I am inspired lately by Yogananda's commentary on the Bhagavad Gita, the synchronized messages from Inayat Khan and the desire to experience God union.
The book is called "God Talks With Arjuna The Bhagavad Gita Royal Science of God-Realization"
Yogananda says, "Wherever one is on the way back to God, the Gita will shed its light on that segment of the journey."
Chapter 1 Verse 10 page 100
"The soul, having regained supreme command of the consciousness says: 'I was never anything but joyous Spirit; I only imagined for a time that I was mortal man being imprisoned by delusive limitations and sensory temptations.
...Attaining samadhi or oneness with God is the only method by which the ego consciousness can be completely defeated."
and page 102
"The savikalpa and nirvikalpa states of samadhi are described in the following ancient Hindu song:
In savikalpa samadhi yoga
You will drown yourself (ego) in Yourself (Spirit);
In nirvikalpa samadhi yoga
You will find yourself (ego) in Yourself (Spirit)
"
Yesterday I had thoughts of relativity that followed me into sleep. I woke up at 3AM and decided to write out those unfinished thoughts. I had so much energy I tried meditating. Just 10-15 minutes in I felt a presence, saw a streak of white light in my peripherals and experienced an onset of chills. I hesitated from a fear. Continual practice in Stillness and desire to move forward is slowly helping me overcome.
Here's to not losing this post