A Crack In My Heart — by Welles

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A Crack In My Heart — by Welles

Post by Welles » Fri Feb 22, 2019 12:39 am

A few days ago one of my closest friends died. Our friendship spanned 50 years. Peculiarly I have moments of sadness but don’t feel any devastating grief. We were born about 12 hours apart in the same year and celebrated our mutual birthdays nearly forty times. I’m sad we’ll never do that again.

It doesn’t really matter, though, for I’ll see him again soon enough. Our lives are all mayfly-short in cosmic time and I’m certain of the continuation of our existences if we so choose. That certainty is why I’m not really grieving; reflective, most assuredly; spending considerable time in memories, absolutely.

My certainty of the continuation of life after death has been a process. It was starting just about the time I met Paul in 1969. At the time my entire world had been stripped away leaving me naked to the universe. In building a new life for myself I retreated to basics upon which I could build a foundation of my own making rather than relying on the values of the world around me. I didn’t believe in them.

Perhaps the essential question I had to answer was, ‘Is there life after death?’ That was my most basic inquiry for it determined whether I invested my life in a potential eternal existence or not. Not meant I could do anything I wanted without regard to consequence. After seriously pondering the question I decided that the continuation of my being was a real possibility and I would be very shortsighted not to invest in it.

Over the years one experience with the Divine and some inspired illuminations created my current working hypothesis. Death can be likened to graduation from pre-school to kindergarten. There we will have new forms. Instead of our current chemical based bodies they will be electrical. Our brains will work much more rapidly. We will have an expanded palette of senses including the capacity to see and appreciate a larger variety of cosmic citizens. With the additional knowledge of the survival experience our lives will continue on our spiritual journeys essentially where we left off here.

I could go on but that’s not the point of this rumination. I’ve noticed all my memories about my good friend are happy ones. I’m remembering only the events and stories that highlight his best qualities. Any negatives have vanished. The sadness of his loss has cracked open my heart and in the light pouring out all I can see is goodness, truth and beauty. Then I looked at the outpouring of memories his many friends are sharing and discovered we all were seeing him illuminated by the light of Love.

With that realization a thought popped into my mind. When we die our physical form drops away and the memories stored in our bodies cease to exist. But the soul is our permanent possession and will be the foundation of our next existence. It is the collection of spiritual energy made real by our choices and actions. Because it is made of Love it is only visible to us here through the lens of our hearts. So it seems that what I’ve been doing lately is reflecting on the soul of my departed friend. Perhaps in this way I am still reinforcing the positive values of his life. It will be my last gift to him from my stay here on earth.

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Re: A Crack In My Heart — by Welles

Post by happyrain » Fri Feb 22, 2019 3:14 am

Oh Welles, I feel the friendship you shared with Paul tugging at my heart as you reflect upon his mortal passing. Thank you for such lovely insights... It is my hope to carry this lesson of Love for those from my past, those in my present and future. You're seeing and speaking a language we could all benefit in taking a little time in learning. Your latest gift is well received by Paul and by this little soul. I am sorry and, I am hopeful for your reunion. Thank you.

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Post by Sandy » Fri Feb 22, 2019 12:03 pm

Dear Welles,

It has been a very busy day and I was so tired tonight... but I paused and came here. So glad I did. While I am so sorry for your earthly loss... it seems your beautiful soul has the right of it...and I find it helpful after a discussion with a lovely gentleman at the hospital yesterday who told me he was ready to die to be with his precious wife again...Well, those who know me well, also understand that I struggle with the idea of loosing my George someday when he leaves his "earthly vessel." I can smile because it's silly to ponder such a thing when in reality I could "beat him" to the "golden halls. So finding a healthy perspective while remembering love and surviving what I can only surmise would be a devastating time will be paramount... but maybe not so devastating... as you so eloquently describe your friend's passing and your ruminations on your many years... I feel much comfort in your healthy acceptance and the fact that you and his many friends seem to recall the very good person and memories surrounding him...That the loss isn't so much a loss but maybe a pause... with the camaraderie and love at soul level, always within and accessible while on earth and into worlds beyond.

I'm not sure exactly what I am trying to say tonight..but I am grateful for you and your sharing your heart and thoughts. Maybe I am one step closer to finding my peace.
Good night Welles and you too Eric.

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Re: A Crack In My Heart — by Welles

Post by happyrain » Wed Feb 27, 2019 1:57 am

Dear Welles,

I wasn't sure if you meant for this directly but I understand now the 1111 prompt as a language that is Love coming from Spirit to Soul after reading your essay.

I've been thinking about the magnitude of this in conjunction to my own experiences.

Side note about our memories leaving us after death, I suppose I am still very much body/ego conscious since this scares me. I am a bit saddened by this realization. Are you ready to leave your memories behind?

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Post by Welles » Wed Feb 27, 2019 11:01 pm

happyrain wrote:
Wed Feb 27, 2019 1:57 am
I wasn't sure if you meant for this directly but I understand now the 1111 prompt as a language that is Love coming from Spirit to Soul after reading your essay.

Side note about our memories leaving us after death, I suppose I am still very much body/ego conscious since this scares me. I am a bit saddened by this realization. Are you ready to leave your memories behind?
Hi Eric,

Your take on the 1111 prompt was a personal extrapolation of the thoughts I offered in the little essay. It wasn't in my consciousness.

About leaving our physical memory behind... yes I'm looking forward to it. I've experienced so much change in my life that to me it will just be another, somewhat more profound change. Remember too that the UB suggests that you can regain many memories of life here on earth in the Morontia worlds by comparing 'notes' with spirits who shared your experiences here. Now precisely what that would mean lies in the near future for me.
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Re: A Crack In My Heart — by Welles

Post by happyrain » Thu Feb 28, 2019 3:22 am

I suppose good works are like that Welles. Thanks for the introspection.
To me this mortal passing seems far away but in the grand scheme of things I know how short our lives are. I have so much more to learn and a feeling like something to accomplish else I'd be long gone, opportunity knocked twice already! :lol: In a dream, I was allowed to view my grieving family over my premature passing and share with them emotionally before being taken into another World where those memories no longer occupied my reality. I was still "me" essentially. But these too are dreams. :study:
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