Excuse my naivety, I don't regularly read the UB. And I will have a long post here... Thanks to anyone who might offer their opinion. Does this mean a TA could be with me and unintentionally share feelings of being cut off like a fallen angel? I just read the
https://www.board.1111angels.com/viewto ... =2&t=29258 message from Uteah who says
The mechanics of this remedial path (of souls) is complex, misunderstood, and controversial as it seems to suggest to some the evidence of past lives that sometimes surface in the current lives of humans as they work through trauma and discover these residual inequities in the subconscious mind. This remedial method to assist these souls through virtual experience (via soul fragmentation) has now ended and they are now to continue their training on mansion world number one.
Through the process of purification by the Universal Censor, the stain of rebellion has been purged from these souls that were once barred entry into the mansion worlds.
I work very closely with my dreams and visions. It is how I stumbled here after all. . . This specific phrase, "once barred entry in the mansion worlds" has a familiarity to it. I've had dreams and idea's of being a fallen angel. Also what one might call a vision of even a future life, leaving planet earth on a cold ship. Could these collections be memory of the TA or is this part of the virtual experience- which has started as early as 6 or 7 years of age?
Secondly, I am not here to criticize those who do or do not believe in reincarnation. I'd say I do believe in it but I am open to understanding the unifying principle, not the how or even the why. I say this because I've had friends trigger instances-
one example is a coworker who has helped guide me back towards my spiritual efforts, there is an importance to our relationship as guided by Spirit. In one moment he was speaking to me and I heard a completely different voice. This voice was like someone from a different lifetime and it was followed by a vision of us as children, barefoot, leaning up against a clay house of some sort. The dirt was brightly colored. I knew we were somehow related. In an instant this happened and I can not explain it.
I will try to carefully explain the most recent experience which I believe is meeting an aspect of myself. I believe we are all One. So much so I believe that this is, "Gods dream" and "in Him we move and have our being." I believe when you pursue your beliefs with sincerity Spirit finds a way to communicate back and validate these expressions. So, I have been blessed to come across these individuals who show me how we are connected and quite possibly hinting to a life once shared together. Essentially, to follow the belief that we are all one meant being shown truth in ways that surpass my reasoning capabilities, linear thinking and even bring serious emotional disturbances alongside beautiful rewards.
There was a Woman who woke something up in me. I started having dreams. The initial dream was that we met in a nature scene by water, there were no words spoken but the feeling was autumn- peaceful leaves, golden light... this feeling lingered with me when I woke up. I was so convinced that what I experienced could best be described as meeting an aspect of myself, Home or Soul. Later I'd have dreams that she'd tell me her thoughts, assurances that were eventually validated. Because of this and my attraction to her physically, mentally and spiritually I quite foolishly fell in love and made a bit of a mess of the situation. She was not interested in me romantically. The last dream I had with her before our cut off was that I had pursued her before, that I spotted her in different guises- even my ex... She can not be my ex which means to me there is some energy reaching in the form of a lesson. Outside of the dream she had joked once that we must have known each other in a past life. I was convinced at that point. What was weird was she told me in this last dream that we've done this before and it was hinted that I might have somehow been abusive with alcohol. I can't tell if I am forcing this sight though. She also told me she didn't want to do this. On a separate note I've had another friend with whom I feel a connection tell me in a past life I was a promiscuous drunk... Back to the Woman, I actually shared with her the golden light and autumn experience... She told me she'd usually meet her ex bf in nature by water but the difference is there's a guardian angel between them. She also told me she wouldn't consider me because I have had a past with alcohol in this lifetime and that she has some type of PTSD where this abuse is concerned. There are other reasons too I'm sure, one being that the attraction is just not there... Back to the final dream... As the last dream came to its conclusion, it ended with me finding her after she decided to leave, this time I was the one asking her to remember. I gifted her jewels and a butterfly landed on a box which became a vibrating white light before I woke up. Ironically she tells me she is a butterfly. The number prompt we started to share was 888 alongside other coincidences, like finding a silver amulet of the virgin of guadalupe on the floor and by "coincidence" this actually belonged to her. I remember the 888 energy being strong when I found it(8:08, 8:18, 888). In the beginning she told me she did not want to experiment with the numbers because it'd mean we'd have a connection, but when I first met her- I felt the connection was already alive.
I do acknowledge that these were intense feelings which were somehow pulled out of me, I thought I could handle things but it turned out I could not, we are not in communication anymore and I am ok with things shutting down. I don't want to force anything or pursue someone who isn't interested in me- I only seek to create harmonious relationships, even if that means having to disappear. So what was all of this- one sided craziness? Could this be the virtual reality Uteah is describing?
Lastly, my recent desires are centered around wanting to experience conscious death. I am welcoming the energy, as well as Love, in hopes to transform. Are these feelings in line with Uteah acknowledging the end of these virtual experiences and a readiness to enter Mansion 1?
If you've made it this far, thanks... Not my best ability to summarize all that has happened and should this person somehow ever find this thread we can delete it at your request...
Just to recap... Could TA's be fallen angels? Are there triggers for this virtual reality? Could a TA memory involve a moment that hasn't happened yet?
Just curiosities, I suppose if I truly wish to embrace death then I need to let it all go.
Kind regards,
HR