Dear Roxie,
It might sound strange, I never noticed the 13 in your avvie before my last post. Goes to show there's always more in front of you if you look a little closer. Thirteen is my number also. I was born on the 13th so no getting away from it! Growing up people were superstitious about 13, secretly I knew there was nothing to fear, I always had the most special days when my birthday fell on that fearful Friday.
I'm glad the self-medicating didn't work out. It doesn't make the pain go away, only prolongs it and causes us to make unhealthy decisions, that more likely than not we regret later. And no matter who we are, we've all chosen some poison to punish ourselves with! We're human and humans make mistakes so we have something to learn from!
roxiedog13 wrote:so the fact we managed to crawl out of this quagmire and move forward without splitting up was and still is incredible.
It is incredible! What a great example you are setting for you kids! It's so easy to blame our partners or take it out on them, when their suffering is equal to our own. Roxie you and your wife should be so proud of yourselves, not that you lost your son, but that you were able to survive his loss and not end up hurting each other permanently in the process. Some times Dave and I stare at each other wide-eyed, panting with relief that we made it though another catastrophe and remained strong with each other. Not always an easy thing to do since he acts and looks so much like his dad and I look and act so much like my mom! For both of us our biggest fear!
I'm overjoyed your dad wasn't as hurtful as mine and that he was able to express his love for you... That's all any kids wants you know, to be loved by their parents.
roxiedog13 wrote:Once in a while he'd catch me with the hose coming home from school or cream pie me coming out of the bathroom ( with a real freakin pie mind you) and then fall on the floor laughing.
Now that sounds like my family! Dave, me and our kids I mean. Every Easter we all get a squirt gun in our baskets...yes we're all over 21! Don't forget gummies. Dan is the only one who can have gummy bears and the rest of us can have all the other kinds.
And... the sprayer attached to the kitchen faucet is the most convenient retaliation tool EVER INVENTED!!! Our son Dan is tall and lanky he could squirt me running backwards and vault the back of the couch in one smooth motion. I have very quick reflexes and would say 50% of the time I got his back wet...instead of the couch's. A mom is like an elephant, never forgets..."Muhwah! He got it when he least expected it!" And if my squirt gun is out of ammunition, the hose is always a great back up. Yes, sometimes even inside the house...it's worth it. As a gardener I have a super duper extra long one.
Speaking of pie! For Kenny's 12th birthday all he wanted was to put a pie in Dave's face. It's all he wanted and Dave is a good sport. Kenny said, "Alright on the count of three okay?' Dave agreed. "One, two! Splat!!!" It was only whip cream though, saved the lemon meringue for dinner. I'm hopeful that our kids have so many fun and special memories they can't even decide on the best one!
roxiedog13 wrote:To be honest I was always, more in tune with events than others, from the age of 12 I believe. I can recall many instances where I knew in advance when events, mostly bad, were going to happen. I could almost say clairvoyant but I'm not sure that is exactly right. I certainly kept this always to myself as I do my 1111 experience in life.
I've kept my gifts, to myself for many years and then only revealing them to a few trusted friends and family. Lately I've made a commitment to myself to step into my power, along with that is honoring my gifts... what ever that means. Mostly it feels like learning as much as I can and sharing my experiences, it seems possessing spiritual gifts is running rampant in our family! Someone has to be the one to tell the next and future generation they're not evil, or crazy!...Maybe just a part of our next evolution.
Sandy,
I just love you
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As you know I've had experiences with my dad in spirit. He hasn't said it but I think he's proud of me... He's knows I share our story with others to maybe help prevent the same things from happening in their families. He's always ready to lend a hand when I call on him to help someone who might be in the same circumstances he found himself in.
Love to all,
Kim