For me I became interested in this 11:11 thing and then I met an old girlfriend. I discovered that you really can't unlove someone and that sometimes when you think that the love that you share between another is reciprocal, it's not.
I really didn't have too many problems until I shacked up with my old girlfriend. It seemed like a nice thing at first and I think that I understand why I loved her in the first place. She was like me, or more like the old me 20 years ago. It took me a while to see clearly after the dust had settled. I dropped out of life for about 2-3 months. I didn't do much of anything but sleep. I let everything kind of go to waste. Stopped paying bills stopped picking things up off the floor... I have stacks of clothes that have been in the same pile for three years that I just look at.
It's been a few years now and I have had other opportunities to go out with others, but I am pretty content on being by myself now. So, I'm thinking maybe my lesson was about being content with myself.
(IDK if this is helpful to anyone or not... but these are my thoughts as of today.)
I read the thread about the gal who is divorcing her husband after 8 years of marriage. My ex-girlfriend was married for 17 years and claimed that she only had sex with him for the first three years because it turned out that her husband was gay. I believed her at the time she told me this, but hindsight being 20/20 I suspect she probably lied to me to manipulate me. (Who knows.)
You can only be the best person that you can be. You cannot change others. I changed by letting myself go. I stopped my routine and quit everything. I'm not to sure I have any regrets either.
I read in the "messages" about going on auto-pilot and letting what happens, happen. I've sort of done this until there is something that I think I want to do... and then I see it in my mind, and then it sort of plays out this way. I've stopped worrying so much about things. when my thoughts and prayers are in-line with my goals/desires I can open my eyes and see a series of numbers on the money. 11:11, 12:12 etc. It seems that I'm on a journey that I don't have much control over. The best part about it is that I'm not doing it at church or someone see-saying me into a coma. It's like being a shaman and having to discover this in the woods all by yourself.
I felt drawn to post this.
Peace & Love,
Derek
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