Re: Twin Flame
Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2013 8:03 pm
How great to see that the topic of Twin Flame has resulted in such a diverse and lively discussion! I have been reading the responses and take something positive from all of your words.
I feel so blessed in my life to have been surrounded by so much love and happiness. I feel grounded and content with the person I am. Of course, life’s course has presented its own trials and frustrations from which I learnt valuable lessons and have grown to be the person I am today. I have always had a spiritual connection, but never consciously followed this path. My mother is very connected and it is through her that I believe my journey to where I am today has been accelerated.
I will start my story from 10 months ago. This is when I realised my true passion – photography. It has allowed me to see and experience so much and opened something within me that has been blocked for so long. I found it connected me closer to nature than ever before and became a meditative exercise that I was able to lose myself too during those precious moments of time I could indulge in my passion. I was noticing how much more I was aware of the world around me and loved my times of solitude in the woods or by running water, watching the glorious sunrise or just seeing the moon.
Then the synchronicities began to start. I met my new business partner who shares the same surname and I believe that this was a meeting that was meant to take place. We are great friends and work together in such an amazing way. Other people are attracted to our energy and love for what we do – photography.
I had been posting images to an online photography site for a while and certain images posted by who I believe is my twin flame caught my attention straight away – I just completely connected to them emotionally and spiritually. It is at the same time that he said the same for my images. It was a few weeks before we communicated, and then it was just a message to say ‘hi’ or share some wisdom on creativity. It was literally like a wave that hit me during these weeks and his name was constantly repeated in my head. I felt like I was going mad. Just couldn’t stop thinking about him. So after yet another restless night of sleep – I sent him a message at 3am to say that all I could do was think of him. He replied the next day…he said it was the same for him.
I questioned my wisdom to follow my heart and not my head…knowing that we were both married. But this was such a powerful feeling and it felt/feels that is more than of this world. We fell so intensely in love immediately declaring our deepest most inner feelings - the words just flowed. I have never written those kind of things ever – or felt this level of feeling ever. Our minds during this time were confused – we couldn’t understand what was happening! The guilt was also there – but we just couldn’t stop.
About a month we arranged to meet – as friends. He told his wife he was meeting a photography friend. I didn’t tell my husband who I was meeting. We just had to know if this feeling was for real. We walked for about 3 hours, we held hands and looked in each others eyes. It was truly amazing just how connected and comfortable we felt to be with each other. Then we had to part – go back to our homes. The emptiness and feeling of loss was huge!! We then hit crisis as his wife discovered that the feelings ran deep (she found poetry). He called me devastated to say we had cut contact. I felt destroyed. Two days later he phoned!
We spoke again, trying to work out why we couldn’t stop the contact. Then I had to say no more…this impossible situation, how distraught his wife must be, my own marriage, the effect on the children. The heartbreak that followed was like the darkest days I have ever had. And the same for him too. All during Christmas/New Year…we did not speak or contact each other. I then had to email and we spoke. It was at this time my husband found some messages. The burden on my shoulders was lifted but a great expense. The trust, the love was broken. He insisted that the contact was broken. I couldn’t make that promise. I tried to explain in a gentle way that this deeper than just a love affair.
I am always thinking about how it would be to be my husband or his wife and it has never been my intention to break or destroy our marriages. Which may sound strange. I have no jealousy, anger, envy and I also do not feel hard done by. This is most amazing love – a true gift in life. I hand the reins to destiny to guide us through this lesson to wherever it that we need to go. I don’t expect anything or want anything. I am just true to myself and true to others. No more secrets.
I want to feel this ‘I AM’ and believe it is there. But I know that this man is my ‘Twin Flame’ or whatever it needs to be called. Our love is so strong – it makes us stronger, and I know it will make others stronger as a result.
The coincidences just keep occurring. We are born on the same day and month, my child has the first part of his name, his child the second part of his name. His nickname has sat in my head for as long as I can remember – it is a name that I wanted my own son to have – SASHA (from Alexander). I would have called my daughter (if I’d have had one) the same name as the capital of the country he is originally from. We think of the same things constantly. I know I even dreamed of this man long before. A dark shadow of someone unknown but I have always wondered who he was – such great love I was feeling in my dream. There so many more things I can list….
I was not looking for love or anyone else. My marriage was ok – not perfect but life was settled.
We call each other a couple of times a week. His voice brings peace to my soul. We tell each other how much we love each other every day…it just carries on. I wake every morning with this feeling of deep love. I have never cried so many tears or felt such a wrench to my heart. I know this here is the most important lesson I will ever learn.
I don’t want hurt anyone – especially our married partners. But of course it does hurt them knowing that this love is so deep beyond anything I can experience with my own husband. There is no one definition of what love is – so many types and levels – all important. This love just runs through me and out of me and I feel its power.
So this is my story. I feel for everyone who is going through this experience. It’s one of lifes toughest challenges for a human being. I am not advanced with knowledge of spirituality – but I absolutely know that what is happening is an advancement of the soul…’divine intervention’.
Sorry for the enormous post…but I wanted to share with you and try and explain as much as I can. Moonfairy – please don’t give up! Let go, but believe and trust in everything working out for the best. Don’t force it and don’t punish yourself! Cassandra – I think you know your truth and it is nice to share this in a place like this. I just hope I've made some sense here - so hard!
With love xx
I feel so blessed in my life to have been surrounded by so much love and happiness. I feel grounded and content with the person I am. Of course, life’s course has presented its own trials and frustrations from which I learnt valuable lessons and have grown to be the person I am today. I have always had a spiritual connection, but never consciously followed this path. My mother is very connected and it is through her that I believe my journey to where I am today has been accelerated.
I will start my story from 10 months ago. This is when I realised my true passion – photography. It has allowed me to see and experience so much and opened something within me that has been blocked for so long. I found it connected me closer to nature than ever before and became a meditative exercise that I was able to lose myself too during those precious moments of time I could indulge in my passion. I was noticing how much more I was aware of the world around me and loved my times of solitude in the woods or by running water, watching the glorious sunrise or just seeing the moon.
Then the synchronicities began to start. I met my new business partner who shares the same surname and I believe that this was a meeting that was meant to take place. We are great friends and work together in such an amazing way. Other people are attracted to our energy and love for what we do – photography.
I had been posting images to an online photography site for a while and certain images posted by who I believe is my twin flame caught my attention straight away – I just completely connected to them emotionally and spiritually. It is at the same time that he said the same for my images. It was a few weeks before we communicated, and then it was just a message to say ‘hi’ or share some wisdom on creativity. It was literally like a wave that hit me during these weeks and his name was constantly repeated in my head. I felt like I was going mad. Just couldn’t stop thinking about him. So after yet another restless night of sleep – I sent him a message at 3am to say that all I could do was think of him. He replied the next day…he said it was the same for him.
I questioned my wisdom to follow my heart and not my head…knowing that we were both married. But this was such a powerful feeling and it felt/feels that is more than of this world. We fell so intensely in love immediately declaring our deepest most inner feelings - the words just flowed. I have never written those kind of things ever – or felt this level of feeling ever. Our minds during this time were confused – we couldn’t understand what was happening! The guilt was also there – but we just couldn’t stop.
About a month we arranged to meet – as friends. He told his wife he was meeting a photography friend. I didn’t tell my husband who I was meeting. We just had to know if this feeling was for real. We walked for about 3 hours, we held hands and looked in each others eyes. It was truly amazing just how connected and comfortable we felt to be with each other. Then we had to part – go back to our homes. The emptiness and feeling of loss was huge!! We then hit crisis as his wife discovered that the feelings ran deep (she found poetry). He called me devastated to say we had cut contact. I felt destroyed. Two days later he phoned!
We spoke again, trying to work out why we couldn’t stop the contact. Then I had to say no more…this impossible situation, how distraught his wife must be, my own marriage, the effect on the children. The heartbreak that followed was like the darkest days I have ever had. And the same for him too. All during Christmas/New Year…we did not speak or contact each other. I then had to email and we spoke. It was at this time my husband found some messages. The burden on my shoulders was lifted but a great expense. The trust, the love was broken. He insisted that the contact was broken. I couldn’t make that promise. I tried to explain in a gentle way that this deeper than just a love affair.
I am always thinking about how it would be to be my husband or his wife and it has never been my intention to break or destroy our marriages. Which may sound strange. I have no jealousy, anger, envy and I also do not feel hard done by. This is most amazing love – a true gift in life. I hand the reins to destiny to guide us through this lesson to wherever it that we need to go. I don’t expect anything or want anything. I am just true to myself and true to others. No more secrets.
I want to feel this ‘I AM’ and believe it is there. But I know that this man is my ‘Twin Flame’ or whatever it needs to be called. Our love is so strong – it makes us stronger, and I know it will make others stronger as a result.
The coincidences just keep occurring. We are born on the same day and month, my child has the first part of his name, his child the second part of his name. His nickname has sat in my head for as long as I can remember – it is a name that I wanted my own son to have – SASHA (from Alexander). I would have called my daughter (if I’d have had one) the same name as the capital of the country he is originally from. We think of the same things constantly. I know I even dreamed of this man long before. A dark shadow of someone unknown but I have always wondered who he was – such great love I was feeling in my dream. There so many more things I can list….
I was not looking for love or anyone else. My marriage was ok – not perfect but life was settled.
We call each other a couple of times a week. His voice brings peace to my soul. We tell each other how much we love each other every day…it just carries on. I wake every morning with this feeling of deep love. I have never cried so many tears or felt such a wrench to my heart. I know this here is the most important lesson I will ever learn.
I don’t want hurt anyone – especially our married partners. But of course it does hurt them knowing that this love is so deep beyond anything I can experience with my own husband. There is no one definition of what love is – so many types and levels – all important. This love just runs through me and out of me and I feel its power.
So this is my story. I feel for everyone who is going through this experience. It’s one of lifes toughest challenges for a human being. I am not advanced with knowledge of spirituality – but I absolutely know that what is happening is an advancement of the soul…’divine intervention’.
Sorry for the enormous post…but I wanted to share with you and try and explain as much as I can. Moonfairy – please don’t give up! Let go, but believe and trust in everything working out for the best. Don’t force it and don’t punish yourself! Cassandra – I think you know your truth and it is nice to share this in a place like this. I just hope I've made some sense here - so hard!
With love xx