i'm not sure if it matters what you call them, spirit guides angels TA. i am glad that this branch has specific terms defining what you've come across in your research but for this thread i am going to refer to it as a general force and call it spirit- let it be guides, time prompts, ghost, lucid dreams, psychic abilities, talks with nature and scary visions
i am very interested now in paranormal investigations. its hard to explain why these thing exist or why us, life, here- but i do believe in spirit and more and more, with the assistance of my time prompts and this feeling of, waking awareness- am able to solidify a once romanticized belief. as i grow i begin to think it really does have to do with providing a loving service. but i get stuck and think i really test my guides patience. i dont understand WHY but i am very grateful spirit continues to prompt me despite my extreme human and material like tendencies.
as in wow i can't believe there's a whole world of ghost and guides we can communicate with and WHY we get to or WHY it exist or HOW but i want to keep moving forward. i think you guys explain and apologize if i am being naive for not reading the anatomy of the halfway realm or in the service of 1111.
feels like i'm back at root 1, but its ok
i want to make this REAL and so i'm here to LINK my time prompts with spirit. if you're new here and have come to this forum because you too constantly see 1111- it really is because you have the ability to communicate with a higher conscious ! as much as thats been told to me here, i've failed to further my communications because of fear in the unknown ! sometimes i get freaked out ! but i want it ! i truly believe 1111 has to do with clairsentience- it makes sense why George tells us to slow down our brain waves or why yogis and masters speak to us of meditation- and to think the end result means drawing closer to God ! i don't know what that even means(!), but it's exciting when you get results, i feel like my guides are laughing at me when i say this- haha because they've been trying to get my attention for so long, and i'm so slow X_X 
today i was prompted and it was very strange. i saw a spider crawling around my car, it made me a little uncomfortable(usually they don't) but i think reflecting now i can say spirit was with me since then. a guide of some sort. the little guy was on the outside of the car- i thought he was gone after have driving around for 10 minutes but when i stopped by the bank there he was. a traffic light went out when i drove up to it. the cross guard didn't notice right away i guess she thought the light was green- there were people(standing) waiting to cross the street. i stopped for a while feeling like i was supposed to watch something.the moment was a little awkward because she signaled for the approaching car to the right of me to go- i thought she was telling me to go too. wrong. as soon as i put my foot on the gas and crossed she blew her whistle and raised her yield sign. i had my windows down and i could hear her yell, "did you see that ! ?" almost like, "i can't believe that man just went." so i don't know if i did something wrong or not heh but the way she said it made me think of the traffic light again. the traffic light going out provided me with an odd sensation. a car in front of me had the license plate ending in 333 while the car to the right of me 555 with the clock in my car reading 2:55.
i'm almost inclined to ask what do i do next ? how do i further contact, but i think i know meditation has something to do with it. it's hard to still my mind and i feel that i don't always pay attention or live life according to my truer desires. sometimes i feel even blind to those
hmm well anyway i am glad these communications happen, and i think it's important to take some time and place your awareness in the supernatural but in general i want to know how to balance it and how to draw more of this in my day to day life. how do i blend this desire in my waking life? it can be very difficult to discuss these things with people ! one thing i know i should get over, but there is a feeling of restraint at times and with practicing intuition i question if i am to yield from sharing ! anyways, i want more of this in my life but also think there are other ways aside from a strict meditative routine. i'm not trying to be lazy. at least, i hope i'm not.
huh
thanks
*oh and how have you learned to determine when the voice in your head, is your guide speaking with you ?
...I know I know... it's utmost on my bucket list to silence it... I am so very very relieved to hear about George's recovery. We need him desperately... well I do. To George... you are my "guru". You with the help of a few others woke me up 
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sends his love and appreciation for carrying the torch. 
