Hello dear PP and AquaDeb,
I too have experienced times when I have been unable to visit my AC or quiet my mind in Stillness. Others, too, have had similar problems....it can be quite frustrating. I think the reason is probably different for each one of us. But in my case, at times, it has stemmed from my lack of "cleaning my inner closets." I tend to be a collector of "stuff", a pack rat of emotions I guess. And I also tend to be a little lazy with my own needs. Sometimes by closing the AC door it forces me to look for inner healing myself...to remember to ask for help and guidance in locating these stubborn packets of resistence. Perhaps I too strongly in my mind associate my AC as a place of healing for others and forget that I too can find healing for myself within its walls...not only that ...it can also serve as a quiet place to commune with God, find answers to problems, or form creative ideas just to name a few.
At other times, I have found there might be a backload of things I need to do and my mind refuses to slow down to any one item (so nothing gets accomplished...At these times it might be helpful to go ahead and work through a few of your physical tasks or do something physical... walk, dance, meditate..something that makes you happy and gets your heart pumping. This will naturally help relieve tension or stress you may be harboring and create a positive platform for meditation.
Now this next thought may seem a little odd, but it truly is possible to become too wrapped up in meditation and living in our spiritual mind so to speak. We need to become balanced individuals, developing all aspects of being...physical, mind and spirit. Too much emphasis on any one aspect of ourselves can lead to problems. We are material beings and are created to enjoy the abundant world around us. So get out and do something that makes you happy...watch a movie, read a good book, study or learn something new, paint, write, help someone in a task...what ever lights your fire and gives you feelings of well being.
The Akashic Construct is just one of many tools which can help strengthen our inner light and help others. Use which ever method feels right to you at the time.
PP, I have to tell you that I tingled all over when I read that you saw your mother's face at the end of Stillness meditation! What a beautiful experience! I just love those wonderful surprises that come unlooked for at times.
Love you both,
Sandy
Hi dear Sandy,
I hope you don't mind me bringing your whole letter over here, but I thought it was so good, that others doing the AC with problems like us, that it might help them also.
you said:
Perhaps I too strongly in my mind associate my AC as a place of healing for others and forget that I too can find healing for myself within its walls...not only that ...it can also serve as a quiet place to commune with God, find answers to problems, or form creative ideas just to name a few.
How right you are, I know in the beginning,,,I really felt like I couldn't ask for healing for myself, as I felt it was being selfish.....then George said 'somewhere' once, about we have a little on credit ourselves, and that made me 'think' well, why not? If we have health issues that don't seem to be resolving with our regular medical treatments, why not, ask for help from the area, that can really help the most???
So I have definitely changed my thinking on that subject....
I also have to admit, that when I realize I am dealing with some stubborn packets of resistance as you most aptly put....that when I can't quite ferret the actual source out. I just ask for whatever resistance is there, to please be removed.....it's like, you know something's blocking you, but you can't quite pin it down, and it may be from so far back, that for me it's just a big waste of time trying to figure it out. So I call on my beloved Archangels, in particular Michael and Raphael....for them to either show me what it is,,,,,or release it so I can move on....then I find things in daily life 'change', it may be an attitude about something,,,,but the shift happens,,,,I know it's different, then I know what the block was, and can really investigate it to make sure there's no residual.....if there is, then I can consciously release it.....(and with huge gratitude)...
You said:
there might be a backload of things I need to do and my mind refuses to slow down to any one item
Oh yeah! I'm there often,,,,,and maybe I'm lucky, but my 'forced retirement', has given me the opportunity to 'slow down' and get things in order.....I always felt rushed, gotta get this done, that done, so on....(I don't even walk fast anymore
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now I look forward to my meditation time, not, geez, when am I going to get the time to sit down for 15 min, or listen to the AC for an hr...
so I'm kind of on the other side of the fence so to speak, I know this is the time in my life now, to be able to concentrate on the spiritual side, that has been so sadly neglected.....
I do hear you though when you said:
but it truly is possible to become too wrapped up in meditation and living in our spiritual mind so to speak.
it does happen like that, you all of a sudden are on a spiritual overload sort of.....that's when I go for a walk, or out in the hot tub, or paint rocks, (anything but housework
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sometimes I need a couple of days to regain the balance,,,,but I know when I'm ready again and it's like Ya hoooo,,,,I can hardly wait to get that CD in...
As I had written, I had got overload, with the AC, and gave up,,,and just did the stillness meditation.....and was rewarded seeing Mom's young face. That's just how I felt, like it was.....good kid, you didn't completely walk away, you just changed methods, here's a present for you...
what a blessing that was....and I know it was something they did for me, because I wasn't thinking of Mom or anything or anybody....
So I've kept plugging along with the AC, and had that weird one, which I just wrote about here,,,,about being in that car with a woman...
sometimes, with all that blipping in and out, you wonder what the heck's going on,
well, George answered that one quite clearly,,,,,so now I'll be more comfortable with it,,,,knowing,,,that even if I 'blip' out,,, it's for a good cause, and it will happen less and less and I get more practised....
and I'm in such an "awake" mood at the present, that I should go do a practise now.....instead of waiting until later, when tiredness is more apt to play a part.....
Thanks for your beautiful letter,
love and blessings pp