Back from my mental exhaustion
I have been away from here for over a month but have for sure not forgotten about my friends and family here. Things in my life started moving very fast with the moving to the mobile home on the lake and work taking a major toll on my mind, I have a software project due very soon so have been working a lot of overtime. Mentally I have been exhausted and made the mistake of putting my meditation and Akashic Construct studies on hold while I sorted out everything else, though now in hindsight I think meditation would have helped me through the rough patch if I had made time to keep it up through everything.
Recently the negative thoughts have started to invade my mind. I am in a wonderful place, my family is doing fine but when my mind is overloaded I start to question everything, from why I do what I do to what is my purpose on this earth and so on. My sleep schedule is all out of whack right now, sometimes I go to bed at 9:30pm sometimes as late as 12am, I know this is not helping my situation. I crashed hard this past weekend and was very down on the verge of depression but could not exactly put my finger on why I felt that way. On Sunday evening I started my meditation practice again, already I am feeling the benefit of meditating and really wish I had never stopped in the first place.
When I stopped meditating during the move I had yet to progress to the point of being able to do it without the help of the Akashic Construct CD so when I started again Sunday evening I started with Track 2. Both Sunday and Monday night an interesting thing happened while meditating with the CD. When it gets to the point of the countdown I start the countdown and can still hear the relaxation instructions in the background I can focus on both with the numbers being in front. Sometimes my counting gets a bit confused and I slow down for a minute but am able to pick it back up. After the second time of opening and closing eyes I seem to be detached from what the CD is saying. I feel that my mind is generally alert but seems to just be a blank slate.
I will be around more in the coming days.
Peace and Happiness,