Interesting Inner Observation
Something happened today and I do not know if it was my brain talking to its self or something much deeper so I am looking for insight here. I have always had problems focusing on anything, weather it is work or home or pretty much anything that is not directly interesting to me. I have so many half finished projects at home and at work. With all of my projects I generally loose interest about halfway through and just push it to the side and move on to something else. I currently have a project that I know needs to be done. Earlier I had read the Message from Celestial Teacher Rael at http://board.1111angels.com/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=20191 which talkes about reflective meditation. The idea of reflective meditation sounded like a wonderful thing to try as I tried to get back on track. See my problem with these half done projects is after I get to a certain point the ideas start to fragment in my brain, I think it is paranoia of any problems that may arise further on as the project progresses or any criticism of the project once it is finished, this is either at work, home, or personal projects.
Sitting here in my chair I closed my eyes, brought my breathing under control, cleared my mind and asked a simple question.
Question:I need focus to complete all of these things I have not finished. Is there anyone out there who can steer me in the right direction?
Here is where my question for the group comes in. it seems that I did get an answer, It almost felt like one side of my brain was talking to the other. I did not write it down right away so it is starting to fade from my memory, but it was something like this.
Answer: Yes there is an answer. You were instilled with the knowledge and ability to complete all of your projects. We know this. You should not have any inhibitions or doubts about your capabilities.
I seriously questioned my sanity at this time. So while I was sitting here with my eyes still closed I thought, I wonder if I should post about this on the board. They might think I am crazy. I was not really asking for an answer just making a statement to myself, but an answer came anyway.
Answer:Yes you should post this event for all to read. All of your (the word that popped into mind was followers, but was instantly replaced with associates) will understand as they are on the same journey of enlightened spirit and mind as yourself.
I was not sure if this was my mind or something higher, but the information make me feel so much better I ended the internal conversation with "Thank you for your wisdom and insight into my current problem. You are welcome here anytime."
As I roll back through and proof read this post I am still questioning my sanity. Any kind of reassurance from the group that I am still sane would be greatly appreciated.